Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Trippy, we posted at exactly the same time Zack 

Awesome, although I have noticed that one of the biggest challanges in my recovery is dealing with the "I want it now" urge. Renunciation is something I am working really hard on, and my meditation practice is helping a lot with that.
^Why Cap??? Ur still enjoying being clean right?
Yeah, I am. I'm just in a lot of pain right now, have been for a few weeks. On top of that, I've been really agitated from several other things. I'm doing my best every day and in 5 days I'll have 20 months clean.
Id really just bite the bullet and just call her up and do it right now. It isnt gonna be any easier tomorrow, so you might as well just stop procrastinating and get it over with so you can get the whole thing off your mind. It would be a very significant accomplishment, somethjng to seriously feel good about. That said you probably with experience some degree of loss over the fact you will no longer be able to hide the fact you have a problem with certain drugs from your doctor, but it isnt going to be that bad.