Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
i just found this today. its a journal entry about my love that died of aids. its about the first real date i had with her.
12-7-97
im awake again, why cant i sleep. im thinking of her. remembering her smile that one crooked tooth that makes her so cute. I havnt changed this shirt in 2 days its aroma of sun dried flowers still wafting from it. every time the wind blows i close my eyes remembering her touching my arm when she talked to me. her voice so gentle as if she was sharing every secret she had ever kept from anyone. and it was all for me, and only me. I can hear her laughter its like a constant soundtrack that matches my increased heartbeat. I keep seeing her nose wrinkle and the corner of her lips set in a loose smirk. My head is still warm from when i lay in her lap staring up at this godess the naturall beauty of the park complimenting her every motion. Is this what love feels like? I can taste the strawberries on her lips when she kissed me that warm engulphing feeling like an electric blanket that spread through out my body. We fell asleep together in the sun. waking i find her head lieing on my chest her gentle breathing only broken by my own. I decided right then and there that i would take care of this one forever if she would have me.
-phil-
i miss her
[ 22 May 2002: Message edited by: liquidphil1 ]
12-7-97
im awake again, why cant i sleep. im thinking of her. remembering her smile that one crooked tooth that makes her so cute. I havnt changed this shirt in 2 days its aroma of sun dried flowers still wafting from it. every time the wind blows i close my eyes remembering her touching my arm when she talked to me. her voice so gentle as if she was sharing every secret she had ever kept from anyone. and it was all for me, and only me. I can hear her laughter its like a constant soundtrack that matches my increased heartbeat. I keep seeing her nose wrinkle and the corner of her lips set in a loose smirk. My head is still warm from when i lay in her lap staring up at this godess the naturall beauty of the park complimenting her every motion. Is this what love feels like? I can taste the strawberries on her lips when she kissed me that warm engulphing feeling like an electric blanket that spread through out my body. We fell asleep together in the sun. waking i find her head lieing on my chest her gentle breathing only broken by my own. I decided right then and there that i would take care of this one forever if she would have me.
-phil-
i miss her
[ 22 May 2002: Message edited by: liquidphil1 ]
