Jenn

[frostyangel]

I didn't write this.. this was giving to me as a xmas present in 99'.
Sometimes, life gets so complicated and we forget where things all started.
We always want to remember the bad things that seperate us.. and never remember the good things that brought us together..

So, I was doing a little bit of cleaning.. and I found this.. I hope that you read this(you know who you are) and remember all the fun times we had.. god sure knows that I blocked them out of my head.. so I took a moment and cried.. sometimes, I just miss you.. the old you.


Jenn


For as long as I've known you,
Always the strong one
The one who could always hold us together
When things got a little too rough
THe one who always had more problems than any of us.
But always had time to listen
And never to judge
And might I add,
Was always right,
Even when I didn't want to admit it..

You were there for me through a lot of hard times
I hope I did the same
And whenever I needed someone to scream to
At 4 in the morning
Thanks for being on the other end of the phone
Sometimes it wasn't the truth that I needed to hear
Just your voice.
To know you were there and that someone was listening.

Of all the people that I met in the club,
You're one of the people whose names I actually remember
And you're someone I know I'll never be able to forget

You've been in every way to me
Inspirational
And that means a lot to me

I hope that whatever it is you are looking for in life,
Finds you in the most perfect way
Of all of us that have had exceptionally hard lives,
You know what I mean when I say losing someone
Is the worst feeling in the world
Thanks for sitting in my car and listening
All night long
Sometimes I get so afraid

Someday I want you to meet the girl
Whose name is in those long sad poems
Julie
And I know you will be right there with me

You'r one of the greatest people I know.
Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart.
I love you.

December 25, 1999


*merry christmas, sweetie*

 

[starlightgemini]

A beautiful poem for a beautiful girl, inside and out

 

[vurtomatic]

Sometimes it wasn't the truth that I needed to hear
Just your voice.

 

[E-girl]

Christmas present 2003

Christmas present 2003

It's that time of the year again,
Where everyone rushes to the mall to spend their hard-earned money
On someone other than themselves.
Sometimes we take the time to write out a carefully-planned list,
And sometimes we bustle through stores at 10 p.m. on Christmas Eve
Looking for a last minute anything.
Doesn't really matter either way, does it?
They are just going to unwrap it, smile, and forget about it in a year.
Except...

Except for the gifts that took a little more time,
A little more thought,
A little more of your heart.
The ones you couldn't wrap,
But that meant more than anything else sitting under some plastic tree.

And a year later.... you haven't forgotten it.
And you haven't forgotten the person who gave it to you.

It's 2:42 p.m. and i just ironed my work clothes,
Spent a long time getting my eyeliner just perfect,
And putting on the plastic smile that is part of my uniform,
And now sitting here, reading your words,
The perfect eyeliner is in trails on my cheeks,
And my work clothes are crunched into wrinkles,
As i sit here and hug my knees to my chest.
And try to put a thousand thoughts into sensible words.

A few weeks ago I watched the hostess lead you into my section,
Sit you down at table 63 and put menus in front of you
And tell you that i would be "right with you."
And like a coward, I sent someone else to take care of you.
There are so many things i wanted to say....
But "would you like to start with an appetizer" was not one of them.

And i watched you walk out the door that night,
And lost the chance to say any of it.

Last night the weirdest thing happened...
Danny's mom, who he hasn't seen in years,
Came to have dinner at the restaurant.
She didn't know he worked there,
They just kind of... bumped into each other
Just the night before,
It was so strange....
I had asked him for only the second time since i knew him,
About him mother,
And wouldnt he like to see her again...
And he shrugged it off nonchalantly...
But last night,
As he kneeled at the table, a foot from his only family,
I saw something in him that i've never seen before,
And i was so happy for him,
And as he walked away, his mother said to me
"This is the best christmas present any mother could ask for"
And all i could think all night was,
She was probably right.
All it takes is to love someone...
And not let them out of your life if you ever get a second chance...

So... as i sit here shaking as i write this,
I ask you...
Is there a such thing as second chances with friends?
If you once loved someone enough,
Can't anything be fixed?

It's ironic that i came across this,
And just yesterday I had actually put you on my Christmas card list...
But then i didnt know if i should send it or not...
I'm not going to say i'm sorry anymore...
I've said it enough in the past year
Whatever pushed us apart,
Its long done and over with.
But if i had one christmas wish,
It would be just one thing....

Let's start over.
You know my number.

Always...
~ me

Merry Christmas Jenn.

 

[neverwas]

You'r one of the greatest people I know.
Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart.
I love you.

*merry christmas, sweetie*

if i could quote the whole thing i would. this was beautiful hun a lovely gift of appreciation bsabe

mwah