Jealousy

[Suki_Nova]

Jealousy, you bitter bastard,
Dripping poison from my brain to my tongue,
Making me lash out at those I care for,
And those I love,
And those I don’t know,

Leaving me in black-shadowed night,

Where the owls pick at the carcass of my past...

With nothing but red-faced rage,
And a heart that vomits,

And bitter poisons,
They burn,
They’ve scarred,
But they will never win,

I cannot give you a face,
When I hold a mirror up to you, JEALOUSY,
It is only mine I see,

And I will not rip the flesh from my own face,

Peeling strips off,
With sharpened claws,

I will not plunge my hands into my own chest,
Rip out the black parasite,



DEMON!



Take physical form!
Show me why you’re such a fucking coward,
You ugly, thieving wretch,

Why do you decide to curl yourself around MY breast?

You’re the bastard child of bitterness and cynicism,
And distrust and bad luck,
Born of an ill-union,
When I was still a child myself,
Bleak years,
You wove yourself through me,
Ran your crusted claw through my hair,
Then told me I was ugly,

Inside and out,

Told me that it was better to be anyone but me,
Then made me believe it,
Made me hate anyone and anything that wasn’t focused on me,

But look at me now…

Jealousy…

You called me meek,
You called me filthy,
You called me stupid,
You called me whore,

I’m still standing,

Jealousy,

Digest this Molotov Cocktail of words…



And be gone from me.

 

[L2R]

Well said.
I like the raw power.
This spell might even work.

 

[A Catatonic Simian]

Nice one!! Jealousy is such a wasted emotion. We only grace it with a name because every monster must have one!!

 

[Suki_Nova]

Thanks for the comments. This is a different poem from what I usually write, but I felt so angry with the monster that I had to find a way of trying to push it away.