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Greenlighter
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- Jan 5, 2018
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I just came across this sIte. I'm,sofar,pretty excited about it! Anyway struggling with opiate withdrawal due to a broken shoulder and my pigish personality and the unquenchable desires for MORE. (MORE=MY DRUG OF CHOICE)
I've been milking the recovery and taking advantage of the process knowing all along that sooner or later I was going to face all this. The T-4's have allowed me to skim by long enough to develop a habit. (Agian) just when I thought I was out of it- bam! I recently
6 MONTHS back, overdosed 3xs in a 30 day period. I hate to even be able to say such a thing;however the facts are the facts.
With out getting into all dram a that was involved with it, I was spending the last few weeks of a drastically dysfunctional and toxic relationship waiting on her bed to open in a long awaited recovery program/detox. She was not happy that I was not interested in following her lead and chose to 'help me see it her way. God forbid I stay in my own home and possibly seek other company. (My addiction or another female. 3x I allowed her to obtain one of our drugs of choice, and it took my 3x's to figure out she was less than honest about how much she had ingested and took the seal she gave me with "my half". All 3xs I was dead, or not breathing actually and the EMS Was called to assist.Now let me say right here that I chose to put the dope in my system. I made that choice. However after 12 years my trust in her was less than failing. But I never saw it coming. Who would guess that my over dose was intentionally organized all 3xs. The fist was the very worst. 12 shots of Narcian later I came around which was very nice because it was the last they had planned to give me.
Anyway, none of this is important other than, i, after 26 years finally met my match the hard way. I was only to figure it all out after fining her cell phone after she was gone into the folds of a recovery center. I would like to say I was shocked, but I was only mildly surprised by her involvement.which is by itself tragicly twisted.
Back to my origanl point. My qualification as a n addict were met long ago.
Hope to see you along the way-
I've been milking the recovery and taking advantage of the process knowing all along that sooner or later I was going to face all this. The T-4's have allowed me to skim by long enough to develop a habit. (Agian) just when I thought I was out of it- bam! I recently
6 MONTHS back, overdosed 3xs in a 30 day period. I hate to even be able to say such a thing;however the facts are the facts.
With out getting into all dram a that was involved with it, I was spending the last few weeks of a drastically dysfunctional and toxic relationship waiting on her bed to open in a long awaited recovery program/detox. She was not happy that I was not interested in following her lead and chose to 'help me see it her way. God forbid I stay in my own home and possibly seek other company. (My addiction or another female. 3x I allowed her to obtain one of our drugs of choice, and it took my 3x's to figure out she was less than honest about how much she had ingested and took the seal she gave me with "my half". All 3xs I was dead, or not breathing actually and the EMS Was called to assist.Now let me say right here that I chose to put the dope in my system. I made that choice. However after 12 years my trust in her was less than failing. But I never saw it coming. Who would guess that my over dose was intentionally organized all 3xs. The fist was the very worst. 12 shots of Narcian later I came around which was very nice because it was the last they had planned to give me.
Anyway, none of this is important other than, i, after 26 years finally met my match the hard way. I was only to figure it all out after fining her cell phone after she was gone into the folds of a recovery center. I would like to say I was shocked, but I was only mildly surprised by her involvement.which is by itself tragicly twisted.
Back to my origanl point. My qualification as a n addict were met long ago.
Hope to see you along the way-
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