James

[Chickadee]

Written about 7 or 8 months ago:
James
It was just a few weeks ago
I was so young
so innocent
so fresh and pure
yes,
there is no denying it,
i had been through hell
in my life
i had taken walks down roads
that led only to obscurity
but i was still authentically me
ONLY ME
I wasn’t yet tainted by
your filthy maleness
that plunged into me on that
arbitrary day
i’m reminded of this moment
our moment
our joining
when every cell in my body
occasionally
starts
screaming
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Yeah, that one's pretty angry
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Here's another one that's a little different, I wrote this recently:
[untitled]
more than any other hurt in this lifetime
the hurt that causes the greatest hurt
is the fact that no one will understand
what i write
that no matter
how i communicate
my words
and thoughts
they will never get it
they will never quite feel the pain
of typing
on a computer
that’s expensive
in a room that’s expensive
with expensive things all around me
expensive cameras
expensive clothes
expensive trash
everywhere
and yet feeling so poor and not really caring about it all
because no matter what i may create with these
expensive
machines, you
will not
understand.
-Laura
[ 10 December 2002: Message edited by: Chickadee ]

 

[SelectionIll]

hi,
i hope you take this... then again, how can i tell how you'll take this, but, i understood it.
you know that old saying, "all great art is born from great suffering" well, it isn't necissarily fucking so. for a long time i broke every bone in my brain, waiting, and yes, it's true, life is suffering, but it is overcoming those obsticles, i mean, even if you think the whole overcoming obsticles thing is cliche, it's still everywhere you look, the story of every great artist and writer, from kerouac to kafka, we are all doomed to failure and death, but we must eat life while we can.
as a writer, you will write forver whether you want to or not. so don't worry about other people. i promise, if you keep it mysterious and you practice, just like anything else, people will notice and people will care.
seemore
well, that was supposed to be short and ironic, and it became long and bloated and preachy. sorry about that.

 

[Chickadee]

Haha, no problem. I'm actually quite happy with my life right now, though my poetry doesn't really show it. For me, it's a release of all the dark feelings. Thanks so much for your advice.

 

[SelectionIll]

oops, that really did come across as advice.
look, i don't know anything, but, ah hell, i don't even know what i really want to say here. it just breaks my heart when all the poetry i read is sad disassociated distant. all art is just making something complete and right in a fucked up world. otherwise, why do it, i say.
blah blah blah... i should be writing poetry myself instead of troubling you with me.
seemore
wow. that kind of came across advicey too. i really should take advantage of the delete key, but that would be cheating, huh?

 

[Nik137]

I know what you both mean about the best art coming from people who are engulfed in pain... i guess its true... i use poetry as a release also....thats what made me really like yours. please read mine, YOU... its on the forum, i'd like your opinions. I am also pretty satisfied with my life at the moment but most of my poetry makes me seem like ive fallen into a pit of suffering...and its not necessarily true.. maybe art comes out that way for a reason.. i don't know. but i liked your poem.