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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards

IVing for the first time. Any advice?

Well, I never said it was normal. Normal for this forum maybe. Yeah, I get addicted to stuff QUICK.

I have kind of a weird situation. I never used drugs my entire life. It's only within the past few years that I'm starting to have a problem. I suffer from severe OCD and bipolar and I've had problems with self injury since I was 12. At one point in my life I was homeless and lived on the street. That's where I got my first taste of drugs. Then I found out that I can avoid cutting myself by getting high so I started doing more and more and now I can't possibly imagine being without it. I say that I kind of like my developing problem because I'm dead on the inside. After multiple suicide attempts, I'm just an empty shell. Drugs make me feel alive; like a whole person. Self injury used to be my drug, but now I found a better way. I already have permanent loss of movement in my wrist and nerve damage from hitting muscles and tendons so I look at it like I'm doing the lesser of two evils. I'm doing permanent damage with self injury, but I'm not while I'm high. Plus, I get the added benefit of feeling good for once.

Sorry if this is long. I'm still high as fuck and I just found myself a girlfriend for a few hours so I'm off to have some fun. This is turning out to be the most amazing night ever.
Going deep on drugs with this mindset is auto-destruction, I see you kind of like it and isn't really worried about your life, attempt suicide etc, but man, if you're not alive you can't love, have fun, even get high. Do some therapy, maybe with psychedelics assistance, MDMA or break-through doses of LSD, DMT, shrooms might trigger something better for your life, therapy is really helpful too, maybe there's something that happened in your life that started to make you feel this way but there's always a way to identify it, overcome it and be happy again and be able to love things again... Just be very careful with your life because it is precious and you may not know it.

Peace and I wish you see you're going the wrong way.
 
You guys are absolutely right, and I know it. I know that you speak from experience and I respect that. I'm really sorry for dumping all that here. That was the Methylone talking. That stuff is like truth serum. I appreciate your support and taking the time to address what I said. Again, you're right. I know I'm heading in the wrong direction but for some reason I'm having a hard time pulling myself out of it. I'm hoping that what Cogumelo is true, and eventually I get out from under all this shit one day.

Anywho...

On the one hand, doing my first IV was the best thing I've ever felt and I'm glad I did it. On the other hand I kind of regret doing it because now that's all I want to do and I know I won't be able to go back to swallowing pills or snorting. :/

I'd like to thank everyone again that posted in this thread and helped me through this experience. For better or worse, IVing is now a part of my life.

So, anybody reading this on the internet by way of random Google search or however, heed the warnings. What they say is all true. If you try this once you'll never be able to go back. I know I won't be able to. That one time experience has me in its clutches, and it will never let me go.
 
On the one hand, doing my first IV was the best thing I've ever felt and I'm glad I did it. On the other hand I kind of regret doing it because now that's all I want to do and I know I won't be able to go back to swallowing pills or snorting. :/

Well there's always plugging when you want to try something new!
 
This is true. The only reason I haven't tried that is because I lack the proper equipment to pull that kind of thing off. :)

Yeah, if you had syringes to inject IV, all you need to do is remove the needle from a syringe, prep your material just like IV, and send it for a ride down the Hershey Highway.
 
You have no asshole? Seriously, all you need is a small syringe with no needle. I tried it and it works great.

Yeah, if you had syringes to inject IV, all you need to do is remove the needle from a syringe, prep your material just like IV, and send it for a ride down the Hershey Highway.

LOL. Abracadabra girl- You are correct. I do not have an asshole. :)

No, but the thing is the syringes I have are insulin syringes and the needles are permanently attached. I guess I could cut the needle off but I'd be afraid of sharp metal left over.

I could buy a syringe with no needle pretty easily. Do you get any kind of rush from plugging?
 
Yes. It's 2nd only to IV.


I might need to try it. Honestly, right now I'm loving IVing too much. I've done it about 6 times tonight. I discovered that with Methylone the rush is the most amazing thing I've ever felt. When it wears off, you can do it over and over again. Once I'm crashing, another shot fixes that right up and I'm back to rolling again. It doesn't even take that much where if I took it orally I would need a whole 250mg and IVing takes a fraction of that. The downside is that it doesn't last as long. But another dose fixes that. All the drugs that I've taken orally or snorted seems wasted now.

I think I've found heaven. I really should have never tried this. I can tell that this is going to become a problem. I spent the entire day searching for needles online because I only had 10 to start and I've used about 6 of those in 2 days. I bought 200 of them today so that should last me for a while. You can't buy them without a prescription where I live so I had to find some more FAST. I thought that I could use the same one a few times but you can't. They get dull fast and then they refuse to pierce the skin and it hurts. You can use them twice if you don't miss but anything after that they're shot.

Geez, I'm an asshole. :/
 
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