I've stopped hiding myself.

[Eyes On the Roll]

All the people I hate, all the people who treat me like shit (and for me only to return smiles), I've let them know how I really feel. It's invigorating. My whole life, I've just wanted to be myself. But that isn't acceptable in this world. I feel free. I don't have to pretend anymore. I have a deadly illness, and have just recently found out I have another deadly illness (which I am too embarrassed to say). I feel like I owe no one anything, concerning niceties and and manner. There are very few people who I care about (2), that really GET me, that I don't have to hide my true self around. They've been nothing but supportive. This second illness, they do not know about. Only I know about it. I'll take it to the grave. I doubt it will come into fruition before then..
Some people live in tragedy. I thrive in it. It's all I am. I look at my senior highschool graduation picture, look at my situation now, and think what a shame.... I could have been so much more.

Since I can't, I'm going to express myself in the most self satisfying way possible. By showing how I feel.

 

[pastelcircus]

That's great and all dude, but nobody said you were dying yet

*edit...

Not that it should make a difference, but yeah. I wish I has the balls to do that

8)