i've got my chemicals - who needs people? the old me is back

[alarminglynefarious]

i try being kind to people but people take kindness as weakness
try to take you for all you got and then you the bad guy for saying no

i don't trust nobody. ain't nobody got me but me. i was all on this new leaf shit trying to improve and be a better person, i felt like a fucking fraud every goddamn second of it.
so this is me accepting it.

i'm just on this earth to have my volatile temper, my lack of any consideration for most people, my proclivities to see people as a means to an end for the most part - because that's always worked for me and i was no worse off. In fact i was better off compared to all this kindness and be a good person garbage.

lol good guy, who the fuck was i kidding. i'm a dirtbag.

 

[Quere]

I felt like that after getting out of rehab and realising abstinence was all a crock of shit (for me at least) — I’m just a better person on drugs