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Stimulants I've been learning about true moderation and polydrug usage

motiv311

motiv311

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So I've been a member of bluelight for 10 years now.

the past couple years I've made new connections and gotten tons of connections for cheap hard drugs... Although I do heroin , ive not gotten addicted (i was in the past) and now my meth use is way more under control...


I would like to share what i've been learning recently about my polydrug abuse and my new perspectives on sobreity. The smartest thing I've been doing recently is going streches of 5-15 days sober at a time... (it all started when I decided to try and do my music/jobs/social shit/ LIFE SOBER..... ) After just 12 days of being sober, I was feeling fine, just a little bored and a bit unenthused. When I decided to pick up my drugs, it was a blast of fresh air. Now i'm certain i've figured it all out. If you do drugs everyday, that becomes your new "sober" if you will..... Your brain and body and soul now get drained for a useless daily high and soon you will feel just all used up... plus all the money you spend....

I've been enjoying my sober streches, and I use maybe 2-3 grams of heroin a month now... and maybe 1/4 to 1/2 oz of meth a month.... It wasn't even effecting me when I was on a daily regimine before. I've started going to work drug free, skateboarding drug free, working out etc etc. and I like look better feel better and get high better

thoughts?

p.s. its crazy when i'm sober and doing something like skateboarding or whatever, I get to feeling like "oh man i'll never be able to nail this heelflip of the stairs like when i'm tweaking" but then I keep at it, and nail it; and it feels almost better than when i'm on meth cause i know i'm sober.... its like all about BELIEVING IN YOURSElF AND PICKING YOURSELF UP AGAIN!
 
motiv311 said:
So I've been a member of bluelight for 10 years now.

the past couple years I've made new connections and gotten tons of connections for cheap hard drugs... Although I do heroin , ive not gotten addicted (i was in the past) and now my meth use is way more under control...


I would like to share what i've been learning recently about my polydrug abuse and my new perspectives on sobreity. The smartest thing I've been doing recently is going streches of 5-15 days sober at a time... (it all started when I decided to try and do my music/jobs/social shit/ LIFE SOBER..... ) After just 12 days of being sober, I was feeling fine, just a little bored and a bit unenthused. When I decided to pick up my drugs, it was a blast of fresh air. Now i'm certain i've figured it all out. If you do drugs everyday, that becomes your new "sober" if you will..... Your brain and body and soul now get drained for a useless daily high and soon you will feel just all used up... plus all the money you spend....

I've been enjoying my sober streches, and I use maybe 2-3 grams of heroin a month now... and maybe 1/4 to 1/2 oz of meth a month.... It wasn't even effecting me when I was on a daily regimine before. I've started going to work drug free, skateboarding drug free, working out etc etc. and I like look better feel better and get high better

thoughts?

p.s. its crazy when i'm sober and doing something like skateboarding or whatever, I get to feeling like "oh man i'll never be able to nail this heelflip of the stairs like when i'm tweaking" but then I keep at it, and nail it; and it feels almost better than when i'm on meth cause i know i'm sober.... its like all about BELIEVING IN YOURSElF AND PICKING YOURSELF UP AGAIN!
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I'm pretty up front and honest with people on these boards because its all in the name of harm reduction. While, its great that you don't abuse drugs anymore, as in, don't use them every day. You're still using enough of each drug per month where its still not good for your mind and body. If you really wanted to keep things in moderation, you would simply dabble here and there on a weekend (2 days out of the week). But, you're essentially using the drugs from anywhere of 15-25 days of the month. You're only slightly curtailing your addiction and thats a generous statement. My best advice to you would be to try and go for two weeks out of the month and see how much better you feel. If you feel fine, bring it down to only the weekends and so on.

Plus: You have to factor in the drugs you're using. Heroin can be a very slippery slope and drag you down a nasty road if you're not careful. Same goes for Meth. You're using two very harsh drugs on the mind and body. If it was a small dosage of Adderall and weed, this would be a completely different story. But, Heroin and Meth are too addictive to still be using for half the month.

Cheers

Tomer
 
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I'm spending more than 50 percent of each month sober, probably more like 65 percent sober; and that's the best it's been in four years or so; it's not been easy ... So I will continue to give myself a bit of a celebratory pat on the back ?
 
Did you say 1/4 to 1/2 ounces of meth PER MONTH? 1/4oz in a month works out to a daily average of about 250mg... sorry but that is just fucking ridiculous.
Either you have a serious meth problem or your meth is really, really crap.

I went through half a gram of pure methamphetamine in about 2-3 months and looking back on it, I was using it excessively. I'd take 20-30mg once a week every Saturday morning and by the time I ran out of it I had worked up a bit of a tolerance. That's from using it orally, in therapeutic doses, once a week.
 
Yeah man 7-14 grams of methamphetamine a month is quite a fuckload....I mean seriously man, how high are you right now? Like I would be probably writing the same thing if I was that high....meth is one hell of a drug (its the only drug I say that about).

It's one of those drugs that I can't really do too much of...I mean, it's very easy to get sucked in and not think you have a problem. Same thing with Heroin, though it's far more addictive...at least Heroin doesn't fuck with one's sanity too much, but 3 grams a month is no small habit either....its a minor-league habit, but nonetheless.

Btw...how are you injesting, what is your route of administration? It would be great if you could share with us a weekly regime...so we get a better idea of your use. It sounds all over the place right now...I

mean even though you say you are sober 50% of the time....

So that means you take 10 grams of methamphetamine and 3 grams of heroin in a 15 day time-span....now that makes it even crazier. Don't know what to say.
 
I was put on 20mg adderall at age 10. By freshman year 40mg a day, sophomore year 60mg..... i also am 6'1" 220 lbs and i share with my band and bothers
 
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