Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I am very experienced IV meth and IV coke user but had been clean for 3 years except for taking dexamphetamine for ADHD. In a moment of mania (I am unmedicated bipolar) I went on global buying spree of half a dozen kinds of drugs.
I used testing kits to test purity of everything - almost everything i sourced tested fine.
Day 11g meth banged - felt like christmas and my birthday rolled into 1. Perfect in every way just sweet warm rush and a strong sense of my own perfection and genious and total loss of all anxiety and insecurity.
After cleaning room, alphabetising books and general pottering around I enjoyed about 5 solid hours of Pornhub Premium but no happy ending. Then i started Tindering chicks in a place I’ll be visiting next month - obviously had my game on because lots of numbers obtained.
After maybe 8 hours banged the other half of the meth and repeated porn / jerking off / fantasising until frustrated. Hit up one of the Tinder girls for some sexting that filled a happy hour or more.
Day 2 @ 8 AM Had to attend unbreakble appoinent with psychiatrist so showered and caught bus to his office. Admitted I had become manic and was TEMPTED to start drugs again but bravely resisting. Agreed i needed to restart Abilify and Catapres and continue with low low dose dex and take valium in emergencies - got scripts and applauded myself for my acting ability and made it home. Take 5 HTP
Day 2 @ 8 PM Meth wearing off and can imagine sleep but feeling anxious about terrible meth comedown i know is coming. Coming off meth has made me suicidal in past. In the end take 5 HTP and 1 mg Xanax and 50 mg seroquel xr bitten in half for fast release. Sleep comes quickly
Day 3 @ 5 AM wake up to full post-meth depresaion and anxiety. Consider re-dosing seroquel but instead shoot .1g high-grade cocaine. Mood immediately brightens immensely: unusually with coke this quality i don’t feel urge to re-bang a shot every 5 minutes and the other ..4 g keeps me wide awake and super cheerful until later that afternoon. First shot no bell ringing but a much bigger one next time sent the train rushing straight through my head. Bliss.
Day 3 @ 7 PM all the stims mean my brain capable of semi-rational thought and I’m still scared of that looming meth crash so I think about what i have left: lots and lots of acid, 3g champagne MDMA, some liquid GHB I’m very doubtful about and can’t test. Acid seems like a big risk in house full of people so i start researching banging MDMA - most research suggests “unpleasant but won’t kill you in small doses”.
Day 3 @ 9PM carefully measure out 50 mg of MDMA and bang it. Unpleasant but not too horrible rush.Vision blurry and temp rises a bit. Pretty mild really. Wonder if should have gone with acid instead...
Day 3 until 5 PM Day 4 - chill listenimg to music, jerking off, going for little walks. Feel pretty normal and definitely not like a person coming down from meth + coke + no sleep. Periodically bang a bit more MDMA at about 80 mg per shot while keeping concsious of possible side effects.
Day 4 @ 6 PM feeling bored but happy and kind of sober i take 1 mg xanax and another 50 mg seroquel xr and sleep blissfully for 8 hours
Day 5-6 feeling chipper, cheerful and generally at peace with self ( but definitely a few IQ points gone missing) I congraltulate myself on dodging the meth comedown but note that it was an expensive, time consumimg and pretty risky way of doing it. Do not feel any desire to take more of anything
ADVICE: Not sometging i recommend or would do again.
I used testing kits to test purity of everything - almost everything i sourced tested fine.
Day 11g meth banged - felt like christmas and my birthday rolled into 1. Perfect in every way just sweet warm rush and a strong sense of my own perfection and genious and total loss of all anxiety and insecurity.
After cleaning room, alphabetising books and general pottering around I enjoyed about 5 solid hours of Pornhub Premium but no happy ending. Then i started Tindering chicks in a place I’ll be visiting next month - obviously had my game on because lots of numbers obtained.
After maybe 8 hours banged the other half of the meth and repeated porn / jerking off / fantasising until frustrated. Hit up one of the Tinder girls for some sexting that filled a happy hour or more.
Day 2 @ 8 AM Had to attend unbreakble appoinent with psychiatrist so showered and caught bus to his office. Admitted I had become manic and was TEMPTED to start drugs again but bravely resisting. Agreed i needed to restart Abilify and Catapres and continue with low low dose dex and take valium in emergencies - got scripts and applauded myself for my acting ability and made it home. Take 5 HTP
Day 2 @ 8 PM Meth wearing off and can imagine sleep but feeling anxious about terrible meth comedown i know is coming. Coming off meth has made me suicidal in past. In the end take 5 HTP and 1 mg Xanax and 50 mg seroquel xr bitten in half for fast release. Sleep comes quickly
Day 3 @ 5 AM wake up to full post-meth depresaion and anxiety. Consider re-dosing seroquel but instead shoot .1g high-grade cocaine. Mood immediately brightens immensely: unusually with coke this quality i don’t feel urge to re-bang a shot every 5 minutes and the other ..4 g keeps me wide awake and super cheerful until later that afternoon. First shot no bell ringing but a much bigger one next time sent the train rushing straight through my head. Bliss.
Day 3 @ 7 PM all the stims mean my brain capable of semi-rational thought and I’m still scared of that looming meth crash so I think about what i have left: lots and lots of acid, 3g champagne MDMA, some liquid GHB I’m very doubtful about and can’t test. Acid seems like a big risk in house full of people so i start researching banging MDMA - most research suggests “unpleasant but won’t kill you in small doses”.
Day 3 @ 9PM carefully measure out 50 mg of MDMA and bang it. Unpleasant but not too horrible rush.Vision blurry and temp rises a bit. Pretty mild really. Wonder if should have gone with acid instead...
Day 3 until 5 PM Day 4 - chill listenimg to music, jerking off, going for little walks. Feel pretty normal and definitely not like a person coming down from meth + coke + no sleep. Periodically bang a bit more MDMA at about 80 mg per shot while keeping concsious of possible side effects.
Day 4 @ 6 PM feeling bored but happy and kind of sober i take 1 mg xanax and another 50 mg seroquel xr and sleep blissfully for 8 hours
Day 5-6 feeling chipper, cheerful and generally at peace with self ( but definitely a few IQ points gone missing) I congraltulate myself on dodging the meth comedown but note that it was an expensive, time consumimg and pretty risky way of doing it. Do not feel any desire to take more of anything
ADVICE: Not sometging i recommend or would do again.
