IV Cocaine - Inexperienced - I hope This Will Make You Think

[daddysgone]

hi all

I just wanted to share an experience I had tonight that im hoping will hit home with some of this community, and at the very least, make some of you do some serious thinking.
just a bit of background first. I am a 30 year old male, good job, all in all my life is pretty together, and my drug use is in control. I have been using poppy tea several times a month for the past several years, and have made strict limits for myself regarding my drug intake- limits which i have not once broken. in addition to the poppy tea, on some nights when i indulge in my tea, i dabble a bit in cocaine. this basically involves me doing small bumps throughout the night on some of the days i take my tea.
until tonight, i had tried using cocaine intravenously about 3-4 times, using tiny amounts that to be honest, barely registered an effect due to the tiny dosage.
however, tonight, about an hour after i had my tea, i decided i wanted to try IV cocaine "for real" this time, and measured out what i thought would be an appropriate dosage. Now, my first mistake was that i did NOT measure out my dosage on a scale, but instead measured out what i would consider a smallish bump. i filtered it through cotton and sucked it up into the syringe. i then registered a vein and for some reason (and THANK GOD) decided to only inject half of the solution.
now as i said, my previous attempts to IV cocaine resulted in barely noticable effects-they were nowhere near as potent as the times when i would simply insuffilate a bump. however, this time within 5 seconds of pushing the plunger halfway down, STRONG effects took hold. my ears felt as though they were stuffed with cotton, my pulse SKYROCKETED, and i became extremely lightheaded and actually fell backwards, luckily landing on my couch. i then experienced the most unpleasant, frightening experience of my life. for the next 20 minutes, i truly felt on the brink of disaster. my pulse raced, i sweat profusely, my eyes could not focus, and i had realistic fears that i might not make it through the experience.
Now, i am aware that this was my first real experience with IV cocaine, and that my fear and uncertainty surely contributed to the terrifying effects i felt. How much TRUE danger i was in, i cannot say, but I am convinced that for awhile there i was at least approaching dangerous waters. my girlfriend was asleep in the other room and i debated back and forth whether to wake her and tell her to take my to the ER, or to ride it out and hope for the best. thankfully, after 15 minutes or so, my pulse began to slow and i felt that i had turned a corner and had made it through the most intense part. within 15 minutes after that, i had come down SIGNIFIGANTLY, and only felt the lingering after effects associated with cocaine.
SO- what is the point to all of this? basically, this was a real eye opener for me. i had slipped into a nice little groove regarding my drug use. i had found what works for me, found a schedule that allowed me to indulge in drugs while still maintaining a productive life. i had set limits and stuck with them, and all in all, i felt like i had it all figured out. But then, tonight happened. I believe my success regarding incorporating drugs into a functional life, and avoiding the pitfalls and tragedies that many fall victim to, endowed me with a dangerous level of confidence and a naive sense of invincibility. it was this mindset that led me to let my guard down, and do something TRULY stupid.
As i sat there during those first terrifying minutes, i kept thinking about how truly dumb i was for putting myself in such real danger. I had just casually and sloppily measured out a dosage of a lethal substance, and injected it into my bloodstream without a second thought. I sat there thinking again and again how sad, absurd, and pointless it would be if i actually lost my life as a result of this careless act. Luckily, i made it through Ok, but it truly was a wake-up call for me, and one I felt I should share with this community.
So, we must all be careful to NEVER be lulled into a sense of invincibility regarding our drug use. We must NEVER forget that we are toying with lethal substances- substances that have killed countless many. No matter how experienced and knowledgable you may be, you cannot afford to let your guard down. The difference between a fun night and a violent death can often be a matter of milligrams or less.
Now this is not meant to be an anti-drug rant. Drugs can be great- and this experience hasnt caused me to stop my usage. But please!!! remember, we are all playing with fire, and we should ALWAYS err on the side of caution. Drugs are just tools that allow us to enjoy things a bit more from time from time-they arent worth our lives. So please everyone, just be careful. Have fun, but be vigilant. Keep your guard up at all times, don't fall into a false sense of invincibility. If you are confronted with a situation where you can "take one more" which might result in a bit more fun, remember that it also might result in your friends or family waking up in the middle of the night to ID your body at the morgue.
I'm glad I went through what I did tonight. It really did open my eyes, and I hope what I've written might open the eyes of some in this community. Play safe and God Bless.

substancecode_cocaine

 

[burn out]

needs cliff notes. maybe then i will think.

 

[daddysgone]

needs cliff notes. maybe then i will think.

What a provocative response. I can see how it was truly IMPERATIVE that you let me and the rest of the community know that my post is too long for you to bother reading.
I apologize, but not all things can be expressed in MTV, Happy Meal form. I had a story and message I thought might do some good around here. Instead of pointlessly criticizing me for making a long post, why not read it instead. it might just mean something to you. Or- it might be a waste of your time. Either way, your energy would be better spent reading it then mocking its length.

 

[Unknown]

Im sorry that you had to learn the dangers in that way. Thank god your alive. This proves how stupid IV cocaine really is. I hope your story helps some members.

 

[daddysgone]

Im sorry that you had to learn the dangers in that way. Thank god your alive. This proves how stupid IV cocaine really is. I hope your story helps some members.

thanks for your concern William. And yes, it was unfortunate that I had to tread in such dangerous waters to learn this lesson for myself. But as Im sure you know, often the only way to truly learn a lesson, is to come face to face with disaster. I am beyond thankful i made it through ok, and will carry this lesson with me for a long, long time. And again, it truly is my deepest hope that some might read this and learn the lesson I did without having to repeat my experience.

 

[Unknown]

thanks for your concern William. And yes, it was unfortunate that I had to tread in such dangerous waters to learn this lesson for myself. But as Im sure you know, often the only way to truly learn a lesson, is to come face to face with disaster. I am beyond thankful i made it through ok, and will carry this lesson with me for a long, long time. And again, it truly is my deepest hope that some might read this and learn the lesson I did without having to repeat my experience.

If you state that your drug use is under control, then why did you do it. IV cocaine is the worse thing you can do to yourself. Have you thought about quitting drugs all together and/or seeking help?

 

[burn out]

What a provocative response. I can see how it was truly IMPERATIVE that you let me and the rest of the community know that my post is too long for you to bother reading.
I apologize, but not all things can be expressed in MTV, Happy Meal form. I had a story and message I thought might do some good around here. Instead of pointlessly criticizing me for making a long post, why not read it instead. it might just mean something to you. Or- it might be a waste of your time. Either way, your energy would be better spent reading it then mocking its length.

it's actually against the forum guidelines to make topics without any indication of what they are about.

 

[Fight Club]

DG - glad you are still with us. Sounds like your "bump" might have been a "little mountain" instead. IV coke is very dangerous, even when you are measuring your doses carefully, because quality can vary to a great degree.

I gram of pure coke will dissolve in 50 units (1/2 cc) of water. That amount could nearly fit in a 1cc rig, and would be enough to kill any human with any level of tolerance.

I hope you remember how frightening that experience was the next time you have an opportunity to use IV cocaine. I had a grand mal seizure and went into cardiac arrest on the side of the road in North Carolina, and that was only scary enough to keep me away from the shit for 18 months.

Before I quit in 2006, I was shooting 1/3 - 2/3 ounce per week, and was more concerned with how I my body would look when it was found, than whether I lived or died.

I have been clean for over a year, and have only used a few times in the last 2 1/2 years, but getting to were I am today was one of the hardest things I've ever done, and also an accomplishment (and commitment) that I put above nearly everthing else in my life.

I hope you remember that experience for a long time, and think about it every time the urge to shoot coke comes around. Good luck.

FC

 

[Mr Blonde]

needs cliff notes. maybe then i will think.

Hey, that's my saying... which I admittedly stole off MemphisX3.

Anyway, I'm sure most users in OD are well aware of the dangers of drug use. This is a harm reduction forum after all; we do get the occasional threads where people seem intent on self-destructive behaviors but generally people here are good on contributing harm minimizing advice.

This doesn't belong in OD; maybe trip reports? Journal?

ETA: There you go. 8)

 

[Inverse]

I IV cocain on a regular basis, and so do many people. You just overdid your dose. You can OD off any drug and have the most terrible experience. I've seen people OD off of pain killers and have had to have their stomachs pumped. Rather terrible experiences for them. Friend told me it felt like her stomach was being eaten from the inside.

This doesn't make painkillers any more dangerous, it makes the inexperienced user dangerous to oneself. You injected cocaine, for the first time... and alone I might add. Don't be using this as some tool to scare people away from injecting the drug just because you overdid it.

It's an awesome experience, dangerous as it may be, the thrill is almost unequaled in my experience. It's all about being careful. The first shot of any new source must always be small... and never use the same amount that you would snort in any needle. I mean, common sense should be common, I would hope.

I appreciate the report, it's definitely a good warning for those out there to "ride the lightning". I've felt compelled myself to do the same, but I'd rather do a million shots, than the one bang to end them all.

 

[alicat72]

Inverse-

i am sad that you would claim this post was not warranted.....this was a situation where he was inexperienced and fucked up...then he wanted to say "hey, do not do this without measuring your dose first"....

seems like you want to say "hey, i do measure...i have more experience and you did not do it right" seems a bit arrogant....

daddysgone-

glad to hear you lived to tell us your experience....

glad that you have warned those would be iv coke users....

i would honestly be too embarrassed, but you thought more of other neophytes than of your own ego.....kudos to you

 

[eon_blue]

Don't be using this as some tool to scare people away from injecting the drug just because you overdid it.

Yeah, because we should be encouraging people to slam coke instead 8)

 

[Inverse]

Yeah, because we should be encouraging people to slam coke instead 8)

Not encouraging or discouraging. It's hypocritical to say to do one drug one way is better than the other.

If anyone read my post, like I said, it's definitely a good warning for those who are looking to that ultimate 'ringer' just to find themselves in a morgue. It's a good story, but not an opportunity for people like eon_blue here to diss the method or the drug.

All drugs are high risk. Unless this forum was all about marijuana, most here know this. You can go to the drug culture forum and see how popular injecting is, encouraging? Nobody is telling anyone to go out and do it. But painting skull and crossbones all over it isn't fair either.

We all pick our poisons, doing it safely is a responsibility we all need to make a priority regardless of how we administer it.

 

[the_ketaman]

Thankyou for posting this and thankfully your alive.

I will inject most drugs if filtered properly, but no matter how pure the coke was so I could find a relatively safe dose, IV coke is something I will never do and it scares the absolute crap out of me, the experience just doesnt sound fun to me and ive been told you can get a pretty similar effect from nitrous lol

I may try crack oneday though.

Hope your controlled drug use continues in the future mate, glad youve been able to keep it that way for a long time and I hope you decide not to shoot coke again.

 

[daddysgone]

INVERSE

Im not sure how you gathered from my post that I was suggesting IV cocaine is more dangerous then other drugs. I never once said that or even suggested it. If you re-read my post, I think you'll see was that the point of it was not to allow oneself to slip into a feeling of being imperveous to the dangers of drugs. I had used drugs safely and controlled for such a long time, then I didnt think much of it when I decided to try an old favorite (cocaine) with a new mode of administration (IV). That truly was the intent of the post. I really just wanted to hammer home the idea that you can be happily going about your life, feel confident you have it all figured out, and then in a brief second when you let your guard down, you could end it all through something as dumb and careless as what I did.
I know this isnt a new concept and I havent stumbled upon some brilliant, novel theory. But I think it might help someone who reads this and can see how something like this can actually happen in REAL LIFE, and hopefully serve as a reminder to always be diligent and careful when using. Hope this helps.

 

[Xorkoth]

^ I agree, and thanks for sharing with us.

 

[Inverse]

I appreciate the report, it's definitely a good warning for those out there to "ride the lightning". I've felt compelled myself to do the same, but I'd rather do a million shots, than the one bang to end them all.

Quoting myself to show that I did say I indeed appreciated the report as well. More talking about the attitudes of some of the replies in the thread. Stuff like this leads to people taking the time to "scare" people away from a drug. Which I know isn't your intent, just making sure people realize that.

But if you aren't going to do any more of that blow, email me some. lol stay safe man.

 

[daddysgone]

All is well INVERSE. Sounds like we are on the same page. I know people can get a bit defensive when they think their drug of choice is being bashed lol. anyway, i regret to inform you that while I will not be repeating any IV use, i still have other uses for the coke and will not be emailing it to you (though I hear Google just made a package that will allow you to email such things somehow). Anyhow, I think i will just be sticking with my tried and true method of administration, which is of course the Intratesticular route.....

 

[CII~360]

Out of every single drug experience in my life, which are many...there are two I will never forget.
One was smoking a joint laced with PCP. It was a four hour nightmare. Absolutley horrible.
The other was when I shot coke.
A friend prepared the needle, and as requested...she started me out at a VERY low dose.
These two experiences are ...by far, the worst of my entire life.
Shooting coke is waaaaaay different than snorting. I snorted the hell out of some coke before this and I had even shot meth. I loved it. So I thought I would love the feeling of coke.
But the needle was not even halfway emptied into my vein when my heart rate skyrocketed and I had the worst panic attack ever with VERY physical symptoms. I could not breath, could not talk. It felt like my throat was closing up and the world was caving in around me.

The "rush" only lasted about 10 minutes, and it is 10 minutes I will never forget.
I do not shoot up anymore, nor will I ever again. I only did about five times in my life...
But think twice before you mainline coke. I STRONGLY would not recommend it.
Great post DG. I related all too well.

 

[Inverse]

Out of every single drug experience in my life, which are many...there are two I will never forget.
One was smoking a joint laced with PCP. It was a four hour nightmare. Absolutley horrible.
The other was when I shot coke.
A friend prepared the needle, and as requested...she started me out at a VERY low dose.
These two experiences are ...by far, the worst of my entire life.
Shooting coke is waaaaaay different than snorting. I snorted the hell out of some coke before this and I had even shot meth. I loved it. So I thought I would love the feeling of coke.
But the needle was not even halfway emptied into my vein when my heart rate skyrocketed and I had the worst panic attack ever with VERY physical symptoms. I could not breath, could not talk. It felt like my throat was closing up and the world was caving in around me.

The "rush" only lasted about 10 minutes, and it is 10 minutes I will never forget.
I do not shoot up anymore, nor will I ever again. I only did about five times in my life...
But think twice before you mainline coke. I STRONGLY would not recommend it.
Great post DG. I related all too well.

Sounds like you thought 1 line = 1 shot. Biggest problem out there with this for first timers is they overdo it. I swear, always start out super tiny, like 1/4th of a small line. Better to not feel the rush, than having the rush kill you.

biggest mistake of my life was thinking "This feels incredible, more must feel even better." Then again, doesn't that apply to everything?

Always start out ultra small, especially your first time. It takes a few minutes for snorted coke to enter your system and even then alot of it is wasted. There is nothing wasted with IV coke and it's nearly instantaneous. So think about what you're putting in that shot. Glad you're still ok though, most definitely.