BourbonMac
Bluelighter
At first I thought I was really enjoying Diazepam. It makes me feel pretty nice and it pairs well with things like kratom (though potentially dangerous, I don't take high kratom doses). I do have limited experience with benzos and the only other one I've taken is Temazepam which I found very weak even at higher doses. Apparently some people love this one the most.
It has it's benefits and chills me out and helps my stomach in times of distress (biggest reason I've been taking it). But I've actually noticed my sleep quality is suffering from it. I go in and out of delirium and very strange dreams.
It's such a downer of a drug. Gabapentin on the other hand has a similar anti-anxiety effect but it comes with this feeling of like, alcohol without the crappy alcohol side effects. If you take a high enough amount, it can be very sedating. I guess that's why it's called the chameleon drug. I was really chilling off a nice dose of gabapentin the other week and as soon as I added valium, that high was diminished severely and I actually felt a rush of anxiety and fatigue come over me, a total crash.
The last couple nights have shown me some scary side effects of Diazepam. And genuinely at moments feeling like I can't move, sleep paralysis type sensations, and the dreams... God, the dreams. They're not exactly nightmares but they are so confusing and vivid. I'd fight to become conscious again and then just say to myself, what the literal fuck just happened? It's gotten stranger over time, but I'm sure that's because the half life is so long and I keep putting more in my body. I was thrown off guard last night because I took less, wasn't all nodding off like the previous night where I'd taken tagamet/more valium in general. When I first started taking it, I didn't have these odd side effects at all really. It would put me out like a light without waking up for hours, I cannot do that now.
I guess we're all wired toward specific substances. Naturally I would probably enjoy lyrica more but I'm sure the addictive potential is much greater since bioavailability is way higher, that would make it harder to come off as well. I can stop gabapentin any time without issue but likely only because I've been on a low dose for awhile. So I guess the new regimen will be like, 900mg or so, few days off, rinse and repeat.
Funny thing is I'm on a very low dose of ritalin and caffeine, like laughably low (3mg and 60mg caffeine) and I feel practically identical to a gabapentin high. I haven't taken ritalin in weeks and barely consume caffeine anymore though. I'm quite sensitive to stimulants in particular though I do gain tolerance quickly.
So long story short, valium has been a miracle for some of the stomach issues I've been suffering from the past few weeks. But as far as the effects for anxiety, I don't find it very enjoyable. I guess it's better suited for a panic attack where you are losing control and it would sedate the hell out of you. Then again, so would a high dose of benedryl. THC is the king for me and I think my sinuses are finally improving to a point where I can consume it again without agitating them. Tonight will be my first real try and I look forward to that familiar feeling again.
It has it's benefits and chills me out and helps my stomach in times of distress (biggest reason I've been taking it). But I've actually noticed my sleep quality is suffering from it. I go in and out of delirium and very strange dreams.
It's such a downer of a drug. Gabapentin on the other hand has a similar anti-anxiety effect but it comes with this feeling of like, alcohol without the crappy alcohol side effects. If you take a high enough amount, it can be very sedating. I guess that's why it's called the chameleon drug. I was really chilling off a nice dose of gabapentin the other week and as soon as I added valium, that high was diminished severely and I actually felt a rush of anxiety and fatigue come over me, a total crash.
The last couple nights have shown me some scary side effects of Diazepam. And genuinely at moments feeling like I can't move, sleep paralysis type sensations, and the dreams... God, the dreams. They're not exactly nightmares but they are so confusing and vivid. I'd fight to become conscious again and then just say to myself, what the literal fuck just happened? It's gotten stranger over time, but I'm sure that's because the half life is so long and I keep putting more in my body. I was thrown off guard last night because I took less, wasn't all nodding off like the previous night where I'd taken tagamet/more valium in general. When I first started taking it, I didn't have these odd side effects at all really. It would put me out like a light without waking up for hours, I cannot do that now.
I guess we're all wired toward specific substances. Naturally I would probably enjoy lyrica more but I'm sure the addictive potential is much greater since bioavailability is way higher, that would make it harder to come off as well. I can stop gabapentin any time without issue but likely only because I've been on a low dose for awhile. So I guess the new regimen will be like, 900mg or so, few days off, rinse and repeat.
Funny thing is I'm on a very low dose of ritalin and caffeine, like laughably low (3mg and 60mg caffeine) and I feel practically identical to a gabapentin high. I haven't taken ritalin in weeks and barely consume caffeine anymore though. I'm quite sensitive to stimulants in particular though I do gain tolerance quickly.
So long story short, valium has been a miracle for some of the stomach issues I've been suffering from the past few weeks. But as far as the effects for anxiety, I don't find it very enjoyable. I guess it's better suited for a panic attack where you are losing control and it would sedate the hell out of you. Then again, so would a high dose of benedryl. THC is the king for me and I think my sinuses are finally improving to a point where I can consume it again without agitating them. Tonight will be my first real try and I look forward to that familiar feeling again.