It's hard

I've been in the mud for a while now. I don't really know when I'm winning, or if I'm out of control. I've been riding it the best I can. I don't want to let it buck me.

It's a different world now. I can't pick up and move on. I've set my anchors. There is no going back. All of my options are things I've never known.

I've still got a good set of cards. Chance has always been good to me. I just don't have the option to walk. I've got to make what I've got work.

I need shelter from the storm. I hadn't noticed it before. Now it overwhelms me. I haven't been making the best decisions. I know less than I thought.

-Jesus loves you, the rest of us think you’re an asshole.

 

We all need a respite every now and then, it's just that some of us have had to go longer without one than others. The thing is, there is no honour, nor any real purpose in being a stoic. Life is too short to take the burdens of the world on your shoulders. You'd be surprised as to where support can be found if you're able to ask.

I don't know about this Jesus fellow, but I don't think you're an asshole. And I'm sure that there are many others who share my opinion.

 

i wish i understood more of what has transpired in order to send healing vibes to you.

Prioritize, remember what is most important to you and try to let go of ill feeling because it snowballs always.

I am sorry to know your discontent, you've always been (in my eyes) pretty level headed person; which I've always admired the fact that anytime we've chatted I rarely hear a negative peep.

If you need to talk some time let me know (i thought a while ago i gave u my number too?)

Dont be a stranger, please update.

xox

 

i wish the best of luck