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It's hard being an addict...

Painkiller addiction, oh please. Get back to me when you've tried living my life having a serious daily methylphenidate habit, and THEN you will know suffering, trust me.
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That's fucking rubbish and just a way to discredit how someone is feeling. I am an opiate addict in(kinda recovery)and it's a ruthless bitch that won't let you go. I mean addicts on a high horse wtf gives with that?
 
Rockbottom36 said:
Sooooo.. Now my mind is like "go get some alcohol". Not today!
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Yeah dude, I almost always think to have a few drinks when I'm getting cleaned up. Something that reminds me of a life before opiates and have a lot of memories having fun whilst drinking. Although I've noticed I tend to get myself in more trouble when I'm not at least a month out of the woods and start drinking fairly regularly. Hangovers are always a nice firm reminder of how shitty I feel and just how I would feel so much better if I had a couple (name your DOC). Never works out in the long run. I'm sure to have a couple beers or mixed drinks this week (especially with a wedding on Saturday for a good friend) but I know I gotta keep thing within reason or it could cause a pretty severe setback.
 
xxixamxninjaxx said:
That's fucking rubbish and just a way to discredit how someone is feeling. I am an opiate addict in(kinda recovery)and it's a ruthless bitch that won't let you go. I mean addicts on a high horse wtf gives with that?
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I'm not on a high horse. I'm just saying that painkiller addiction may be an annoyance and yeah maybe you'll feel like you have a cold when you stop for half a week or so, but if you want a taste of REAL misery and REAL suffering you should try walking a mile in my shoes with my methylphenidate addiction. I'm not downplaying your addiction, I'm just saying that objectively and pharmacologically, mine is worse.
 
I'm here to listen as well. Share what's going on with you. I hope and pray that you pain and WD will ease and you can move forward.
 
Hi all ! Rio been there too and yes stim withdrawl sucks, withdrawl any way you look at it is rough. I hope you are getting through it ok (if there is such a way). That is one withdrawl I went through CT in 2001 and I will never forget it, Anyway I keep rereading posts trying to get some strength and not forgetting where I have been but still can't seem to get one day. I start out in morning saying just for today I won't use and then I get a call and can't seem to say just "no" .
 
Damn, guys. I'll be level with you, it was just a silly test I was doing to see how supportive and helpful people really are on Bluelight, but it appears the kindness and compassion you guys have knows no bounds! I don't have a methylphenidate problem, I've never had a stimulant problem, heroin is my poison. I thought if I came into this thread acting like a condescending douche about an incredibly mild drug - Ritalin - and acted as if I thought that that was more severe than what people go through with opiates, I'd get people trying to put me in my place, and telling me to shut up (as you should have been doing, by all rights), and then I guess that that would prove that the support you guys offer to those who are struggling has a limit, and that you won't help people if they act like complete & total douches first. But you guys have completely proven me wrong. I'm honestly really really surprised by the reaction I've gotten. I'm going to try and take something from it guys - if you didn't rise to me being a dick on purpose, then I should try my hardest not to rise to others' provocations and just be a force for good. You've honestly shown me that here, and I really thank you for that. You guys are honestly the best, this is a fantastic forum, on Bluelight from here on out I'm going to try my best to try and be a positive influence, like how you guys have just been with me. :)
 
It takes dying to ourselves daily. The process of passing away or changing the color of a thing. It seems to me that my body/mind craves the thing called drug but my soul disagrees knowing that the thing is a trap. I think deep down most addicts confront the massive truth before and in us and using the thing to pause the world seems natural.

I've often wondered how Lenny could say" I've never done drugs or alcohol". It just seems so normal to have a substance problem of some sort, at least in modern/ industrious societies i.e. Australia, UK, South Africa, US, ect.......

Sober is counter to culture. Id rather see what's coming standing upright and ready than hidden somewhere in the sands of addiction. This seems to give aid to a dying poet and mislead youth. Damage will never be measured with my measures because they are mine. Only a pure source can measure who we are. At this point I'm just letting the fingers fall and hoping that it hits home!

Just a ramble
 
An addiction is an addiction.
Be it painkillers, stimulants, gambling, or even food.
It is a habit that has a negative affect on someone's life, and they have the right to seek help without judgement. Everyone handles their struggle in their own way. Please be considerate of others' hardships because no one is in anyone else's shoes. :)
Painkiller addiction may be hell for one person but a piece of cake to another. Same goes for methylphenedate or anything else. Everyone is different, everyone's body/brain processes drugs differently.

"What is normal to the spider is chaos to the fly."
 
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