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its happening AGAIN,im slowing destructing,

Rehab, as much as I hate it....There's good ones, they're must be free detoxes in LA, if you can do a 7 day detox followed by a month or so in rehab, it could definitely help you....
 
Bupe is pretty easy to taper on, as far as withdrawals go, and certainly compared to H. I have never had benzos when getting off of it. You'll be better than you think. Look out at your alcohol intake AFTER this time. I think it's pretty obvious that you'll be drinking during it, and of course hopefully not, but I know that zone all too well.
 
I wasn't able to get off opiates until I reached out to God and humbly asked him to remove my addiction and need for drugs. I had a spiritual awakening and now God does for me what I couldn't do for myself. If you can't stay sober, ask God to do it for you. Thats what I did and the cravings have vanished and I have 100+ days sober now. There is no future continuing to do what your doing. The sooner you get out of the addiction trap the better, sobriety is not as bad as it seems when your deep in your addiction. You are a slave, like I was. And now that I'm free it's truly the most amazing feeling I really want you to find it to man.
 
im realky been bad. i havent found any bupe or methadone and i just cant be sick right so i pawned off my ipod and tonorrow im going to sell some of my foodstamps and hit up the clinic and try to get somebodys take homes . it rreally sucks but i cant be sick or tell anyone. its a rreally dreadful situation and i feel horrible 24/7 even when im high . lifes a trip
 
Damn man, I feel for you, my story is almost the same. Although i'm not on the smack anymore, I just switched up my state's and now i've been doing ice consistently for about 3 weeks (every day). I'm to the point I can eat and sleep on it, which I never could, if my family finds this shit out they'll kill me. Plus, now I hear they have a warrant out for me back in the midwest and they came to aunt's looking for me. Really don't feel like going back to prison, but this shit gives me another excuse to get high, as if I need one in the first place. It's just what I tell the few people who are around me, that I wanna get high cause I might go back to prison. I remember that point, i'd be fucked up on oxy or dope and i'd say every time I wasn't doing anymore, you wake up feeling horrible, and i'd go straight to the spoon even before I took a piss. I hate that fucking shit man, it fucking sucks.
 
Oh man I've been in your shoes...

Personally I'd probably tough it out and show up to work everyday, I don't know how bad your w/ds are but I've quit cold turkey ~6 times or so and I could usually go to work.

On the other hand sometimes its worth it in the long run to suck it up as get some help. I went to rehab once and decided to make the most of it. 2.5 years later and I've got a bad ass girl, bad ass job and almost have an engineering degree.

For me it's the shame and guilt that kill, give me a reason to perpetuate the cycle. I'd be lying if I said I never touched dope after rehab, but once you have the ability to choose all ya gotta do is decide not to.

Either way it time to suck it up and do what's best for you. Good luck man.
 
Disraeli_Beers said:
Oh man I've been in your shoes...

Personally I'd probably tough it out and show up to work everyday, I don't know how bad your w/ds are but I've quit cold turkey ~6 times or so and I could usually go to work.

On the other hand sometimes its worth it in the long run to suck it up as get some help. I went to rehab once and decided to make the most of it. 2.5 years later and I've got a bad ass girl, bad ass job and almost have an engineering degree.

For me it's the shame and guilt that kill, give me a reason to perpetuate the cycle. I'd be lying if I said I never touched dope after rehab, but once you have the ability to choose all ya gotta do is decide not to.

Either way it time to suck it up and do what's best for you. Good luck man.
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Shit I like your moxy! ha! but goin to work half dopesick sucks.....Still sounds like the OP needs to work! Shit, jobs are hard to come by these days....I'm thinkin do a lil' taper with some other shit if you can....If you can't, I guess go to work anyway! that's what my dad would tell me to do!
 
i just got 8mg of sub. I plan on taking 2mg a day for 4 days and be done with it all. Maybe 1mg in the morning and one 12 hours later, and so forth.
 
Anything you still wanna do aside from being numb and getting by? You're pretty young, possibilities would seem rich.
 
i wanna work in the movie industry. Maybe go to grip school to become a grip...and eventually make movies...that would be my dream....not likely to happen

but im off to my first day of work.. >< alittle sik...
 
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