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I was wondering about her too Dix. My little one is with his mom. Boston butt already going and I won't have to do much around the house today. Back to back episodes of my favorite show are coming on. Don't think I will have trouble sticking to one. I was up for several hours before I took it. Six and a half left. Going to halves tomorrow.
 
Well that didn't go as planned. But it turned out to be a good day. Went with a friend to her doctor appt. We went out to eat. Which I never do. Picked up the boy (yay!) got a call from the neighbor that hubs was at the er. Rolled his foot in the yard. His bones in his foot are crap. They didn't set them right after his fall in 95. I guess they were more concerned about his brain hanging out of his head? So we will call his ortho today and get him checked out. I did not go half today. Epic failure. Took a whole.
 
Hi Rural: I hope your hubby got the treatment he needed this time, at the ER. Dixie, I got your message... yes, all is well here. but incredibly busy. I have used granddaughter's nap time(s) to get my belongings together and make lists of what remains to do/buy before I head out Friday morning. I will only be on here minimally until I get a chance to find wifi on the road someplace So, please do not worry about me... I will be back here in mid September with a lot more frequency. My daughter got some information that there is an excellent chance here house will be completed by mid-September, with a tentative closing date set around the 15th. Of course, a couple more inspections are set, so that may change. But, there is lite at the end of the tunnel. Rural: taking a whole, in my book, is not an epic failure. In my opinion, I am a failure when I use more as in amount or frequency than what is prescribed. I am getting used to only 2 oxys per day, but do miss the burst of energy I usually get around 4 pm when I used take pill number 3. I am just wiped out and watch tv or chat with my daughter in the evenings. Well, G.D. is starting to whine for attention.... have a blessed day, you'all. And Dixie: I am visualizing those autumn colors, as I grew up in PA with gorgeous fall colors... set a goal, and who knows? I have wanted to see the Pacific Coast Highway in Cali for years... ever since I started watching the Real Housewives of the OC, lol... I had work interfering, and also, no companion. Well, now that I have a very small business, where I set the hours, and I trust in myself.... I have removed the barriers.
 
There will totally be days that set you back. It's normal. Don't give up the good fight and go back to square one - remember that all will pass. Focus on all the good work you have done. Think of those days you were in the garden and feeling well. They will come again. This is a process. If it was quick and easy none of us would be here talking! The physical withdrawal is only the beginning, but it does get better! Remember if you go back to square one you have to start all over. Thinking of you! You can do it!
 
dognasher said:
There will totally be days that set you back. It's normal. Don't give up the good fight and go back to square one - remember that all will pass. Focus on all the good work you have done. Think of those days you were in the garden and feeling well. They will come again. This is a process. If it was quick and easy none of us would be here talking! The physical withdrawal is only the beginning, but it does get better! Remember if you go back to square one you have to start all over. Thinking of you! You can do it!

Thank you and you're right. If it were easy I wouldn't be begging others for input and God for mercy. I did have to take a few as opposed to just one pill. I'm past due for my spinal tap and the pain is getting to me. I still didn't take even the prescribed amount thought. And any day I can stay within the boundaries and especially the days I'm not eating them like tic tacs is a small victory. Thanks Dog :-) best wishes to you
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To my girls dix and poke I haven't logged in for several days. I'm settling into BL life and am realizing it's not like Facebook..... I don't have to check it every time I sit down lol Will spend some time reading and catching up tonight or tomorrow. Not feeling fabulous. Calling an early night here at the ponderosa. Best wishes you two girls
 
I can not even imagine how hard it must be for you since you have legitimate pain, give yourself a pat on the back!

I hope you start feeling better soon, and yeah not eating them like tic tacs is a friggin' HUGE victory!
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Hey RG...I think Poke is preparing for her trip...Maybe has left already. She'll be gone a while. I'm around, if you wanna type with me. I don't FB...not my thang. Sorry you're feeling bad. Me, too.

Take care! :)
 
Dog thank you! You're an awesome cheerleader. I appreciate your comments. Very uplifting deer :-) Especially today. It has just been a day. And it has been a day since I got out of bed. Can't call in sick to life and it is so very close to bedtime and blessed sleep.
Dix! Hey sweets! Hope you are well. I think you are correct on our girl. I remember her saying something about that. I have the little guy. His mothers bark was worse than her bite. I guess I shouldn't let her get me so upset. It's not like I just met her! :-)
 
Hey RG...How are you, sis? When I read that you FB, I figured "oh, fuck"...I was hoping I'd found a sister from another mother, but I'm not an FB kinda gal. IMO it's far too superficial, but different strokes I guess.

I enjoy typing to ya, because these folks IRL don't have a clue. If they found one, I'd have to bend over and pick it up for them because they are fucking useless. But I'm not bitter.

I'm tickled you have your grand with you, as little ones keep you going...and going! Good stuff, IMO. I've always liked kids more than adults. I could never have my own, but basically raised 2 of my nieces while my sister lavished her libido. They've grown into young women now and moved across country. They won't be back. They cut ties with "parents" and extended family by association. Heartbreak, but I did everything I could for them.

Believe me, I understand the seduction of the bed. My therapist once told me to get up every morning, make the bed, and don't return until bedtime. I've done that for 25 years now. I'm so fucking OCD, I won't move even one of the bazillion pillows once it's made to perfection.

I confess, though...SHINGLES changed that for a while. I was forced to take leave of absence and self-isolate. I closed the shutters and existed in the darkness for months. YES, I also LOOKED like a monster.

I'm in a shitty place that I can't seem to escape. Kind of contradiction, I guess, with constipation putting me face down in the floor. I know that my intestines are being choked to death by adhesions of endometriosis. I fear further surgery will result in resection/colostomy. I can't handle that. I already have too much to "cope" with.

Sorry you're having a rough go of it. Hope you're feeling better by today! I must say that I "envy" Poke in a good way. I wish I was cruising down the Pacific Coast. We just bought an FJ Cruiser (hot yellow) that was on my bucket list. It needs a road trip! Wish we were driving over to our coast this weekend.

Instead, we're hosting 20+ family members for Labor Day. My husband said "Let's blow this bitch of parasites on holiday and hit the road"! I'm tempted. Instead, I'm cramped double for 2 days...can't eat or poop. My body thinks it's PMS even though my uterus and ovaries are a vague memory sans 20+ years. I'll get through it, and put on a major shindig for the bunch, with no one the wiser. As I said...Not a fucking clue.

I wish we lived closer. Hey, meet us at the Riviera...We'll blow out our flip flops!

~Dixi
 
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