it's been so long for me to be away from a computer. i've filled an inch thick notebook in under two weeks.
half the things i wish i could let spill out here i'm too scared to write. what if the wrong person reads it? when is that going to be over with?!
i can say that after over a year of wondering why and wishing there was something anything left behind by my husband, even if it was that he hated me. just something in his hand writing. my mother to me there is/was a note to me and to boot a poem. my half ex-sister has a copy, has had it. they all knew. now i'm waiting. and waiting. watching my phone pleading for the coroner to call and tell me they found the letter and i have have a copy after 16 months of wondering i'll know...prolly nothing but more tears. i'm still on the edge of my seat.
half the things i wish i could let spill out here i'm too scared to write. what if the wrong person reads it? when is that going to be over with?!
i can say that after over a year of wondering why and wishing there was something anything left behind by my husband, even if it was that he hated me. just something in his hand writing. my mother to me there is/was a note to me and to boot a poem. my half ex-sister has a copy, has had it. they all knew. now i'm waiting. and waiting. watching my phone pleading for the coroner to call and tell me they found the letter and i have have a copy after 16 months of wondering i'll know...prolly nothing but more tears. i'm still on the edge of my seat.