Tarsarlan
Bluelighter
A follow-on from The good ol' days
It's even harder these days, something happens which I think that I'll finally be able to enjoy. I feel some pain and I think to myself "At last, at last I can wallow in self-pity for a while!"
But then again it happens, a friend visits and before long we're talking about some random event which makes us both laugh. And inside I know that tonight won't be a night for crying. Damnit!
And the next day, when I think that I'll be able to mope around the house for a while, a friend calls and we chat, and we go out for lunch, and we do some shopping. And I don't even get one spare second to catch up on some quality moping.
Any time that I think that at last I'll have some peace to sit and stare mutely at the wall, my mobile phone beeps, another friend telling me how much they care. Oh man!
When I lock my keys in the car and think that yes, now I can sit out in the cold and be miserable while I wait for the RACV to save me, a friend drives past, see me and offers to drive me home to get my spare keys. Of all the rotten luck!
When I decide that I don't want to take drugs, that now isn't really a good time, do they shrug and snort away? No! At least one of my friends will stay straight with me! Why damn you why?
All these friends just make it so hard to be unhappy these days...
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Dedicated to my friends, from those I only know through Bluelight, to those I spend most of my time with, to those special few who will always have a place in my heart...
It's even harder these days, something happens which I think that I'll finally be able to enjoy. I feel some pain and I think to myself "At last, at last I can wallow in self-pity for a while!"
But then again it happens, a friend visits and before long we're talking about some random event which makes us both laugh. And inside I know that tonight won't be a night for crying. Damnit!
And the next day, when I think that I'll be able to mope around the house for a while, a friend calls and we chat, and we go out for lunch, and we do some shopping. And I don't even get one spare second to catch up on some quality moping.
Any time that I think that at last I'll have some peace to sit and stare mutely at the wall, my mobile phone beeps, another friend telling me how much they care. Oh man!
When I lock my keys in the car and think that yes, now I can sit out in the cold and be miserable while I wait for the RACV to save me, a friend drives past, see me and offers to drive me home to get my spare keys. Of all the rotten luck!
When I decide that I don't want to take drugs, that now isn't really a good time, do they shrug and snort away? No! At least one of my friends will stay straight with me! Why damn you why?
All these friends just make it so hard to be unhappy these days...
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Dedicated to my friends, from those I only know through Bluelight, to those I spend most of my time with, to those special few who will always have a place in my heart...
