well...new year turned out to be good. nothing spectacular or anything. had 3 gram of coke between 3 of us. was intense. been so long since i last had it. gotta keep it as a one off tho cos i love that stuff way too much. dappa's birthday bash saturday...not sure if i am going yet. we shall see. would love to ofcourse. still thinking about this pregnancy thing. not as much as before but glad to know when my period is so i can keep track atleast. if it happens it happens, if not then life goes on for another month. stick to the usual. to be honest i am getting sick of the raving lifestyle. its becoming boring to me. maybe i'm passed it????
already started trying to better myself for new year. loving life atm. trying to keep house tidy, being better with my man. trying to all round just be a happier person. shouldnt have told joanne about the extremes our relationship has come to but in a way it was good to talk. i dont wanna be that person anymore.
thinking of having a bath. really tired atm. not feeling to good, very uncomfortable. irritable that sorta thing. eating far too many fatty foods. could do without eating cheese and bacon everyday. hmmmm.
joanne just seems to throw different problems at me everyday, she's starting to become somewhat of an annoyance cos i know its just for attention. i still try to help cos i love her to bits. i really think this thing with matho is the only thing keeping her sane but messing her up too. glad rob has fucked off now. she needs to chill with the coke tho.
liam has been round passed couple days, was good to see him. actually missed him when he went. he really is like a little brother to me.
destiny found a 5er and i convinced her it was mine and gave her a pound in return. shouldnt have done it but the kid has loads of money in her money box. we have nothing! she is doing so well at saving tho, i will repay her.
already started trying to better myself for new year. loving life atm. trying to keep house tidy, being better with my man. trying to all round just be a happier person. shouldnt have told joanne about the extremes our relationship has come to but in a way it was good to talk. i dont wanna be that person anymore.
thinking of having a bath. really tired atm. not feeling to good, very uncomfortable. irritable that sorta thing. eating far too many fatty foods. could do without eating cheese and bacon everyday. hmmmm.
joanne just seems to throw different problems at me everyday, she's starting to become somewhat of an annoyance cos i know its just for attention. i still try to help cos i love her to bits. i really think this thing with matho is the only thing keeping her sane but messing her up too. glad rob has fucked off now. she needs to chill with the coke tho.
liam has been round passed couple days, was good to see him. actually missed him when he went. he really is like a little brother to me.
destiny found a 5er and i convinced her it was mine and gave her a pound in return. shouldnt have done it but the kid has loads of money in her money box. we have nothing! she is doing so well at saving tho, i will repay her.