Last night, after many bowls & several lines, I had the worst itching sensations that just WOULD NOT GO AWAY! So I took Tizanidine & Trazodone to relax (a combo which I have taken before with zero kinks.) Then I went to take a shower (3am) & that's the last thing I remember.
I woke up at about 8 this morning, in the bathtub, with blood & makeup everywhere. I look like absolute shit! Just spent the last several hours cleaning my bathroom, cutting my nails, & taking another shower. I truly hope I don't get scars on my legs, not like anyone other than me would give a shit. At least I didn't scratch up my face.
Anyway, I'm meeting a "friend" at 1. I think I'm going to talk to her, about me. She might actually be the first person in my life that I'm going to talk to about everything (aside from you lovely Bluelighters
.) I'm scared shitless. I told her I wanted to talk last night, but she doesn't know the half of it. I only hope that she doesn't react terribly. I couldn't stand that. To put myself out there in a real life situation & for it to backfire on me. But I trust her, for the most part... I would like to thank all of you though, for inspiring me to talk about my problems & open up. Maybe having one good friend to confide in will be helpful.
Ta Ta For Now,
JP
I woke up at about 8 this morning, in the bathtub, with blood & makeup everywhere. I look like absolute shit! Just spent the last several hours cleaning my bathroom, cutting my nails, & taking another shower. I truly hope I don't get scars on my legs, not like anyone other than me would give a shit. At least I didn't scratch up my face.
Anyway, I'm meeting a "friend" at 1. I think I'm going to talk to her, about me. She might actually be the first person in my life that I'm going to talk to about everything (aside from you lovely Bluelighters
.) I'm scared shitless. I told her I wanted to talk last night, but she doesn't know the half of it. I only hope that she doesn't react terribly. I couldn't stand that. To put myself out there in a real life situation & for it to backfire on me. But I trust her, for the most part... I would like to thank all of you though, for inspiring me to talk about my problems & open up. Maybe having one good friend to confide in will be helpful.Ta Ta For Now,
JP