it is, is it?

[mashead testing]

Although its clearer now
its still hard to see
but everything ive ever misunderstood
is what makes me me
Tears from the past
appear as memories
all the times when I tried
but didnt get anywhere
I knew I was different
but I didnt know how
now im more sure
I dont want to be here any more
Not here as in presence
just here in my state of mind
settling was never easy
and change couldnt have been as hard
But I still dont know what this means
what differences it will make
how it will affect the decisions I take
its hard but easy
Not here,
but im there,
not there,
but im here
I cant think,
its all too clear
not knowing was hurting me
but knowing has hurt
Every question I asked
every answer I misunderstood
everything I was unsure of
and never accepting any love
So now here I am
still the same and a little wiser
but scared, ever so slighty scared
for the future.
[ 14 May 2002: Message edited by: masheadatronic ]

 

[plazma]

Nice work.
-plaz out-

 

[Aja909]

d00d! you need to print this! :D
I wish I could have come up with that because that is exactly how I felt about 2 years ago so I sorta know from where this is coming from
{{mash}}

 

[frostyangel]

You are always one of my favorite writers in here, your words just fall together so perfectly.

I knew I was different
but I didnt know how
now im more sure
I dont want to be here any more
I can feel this almost everyday of my life!