jungle1st
Bluelighter
As I sit here, I become more and more distanted from myself and my future.
I am forgetting all that makes me.
I am losing touch with reality.
Things get harder everyday.
Waking up.
Working.
Breathing.
When you finally find something real...
And then you lose it....
It hurts.
When something feels so right and then you find that its wrong.
A part of you dies.
And with every step I take, every time I look in the mirror.
I become more and more distant from who I really am.
How can this be?
It hurts.
God, please make me understand.
Understand why the one thing I love is being taken from me.
What is happening to us?
We are turning on each other.
I feel so much pain.
It hurts.
Why does god laugh at me?
As he ripped the one person, who has meant more to me for the longest time away from my arms.
There is nothing I can do they say.
She is in god's hands, they say.
Fuck that.
If only I could be a doctor now.
I could help her.
She was taken from me so quickly.
Forever.
There is no next time in death.
And there are no exceptions.
I never even got so say goodbye.
With her a part of me died too.
She was my sister and friend.
The only sibling I ever had.
To you as a friend,
I warn you.
Live and love for today.
Because there may not be a tomorrow...
For my loving sister.....Carissa Leigh Whyde
R.I.P.
I LOVE YOU......
I feel you here with me, every minute of every day.
with much love,
Your lil bro,
christopher
I am forgetting all that makes me.
I am losing touch with reality.
Things get harder everyday.
Waking up.
Working.
Breathing.
When you finally find something real...
And then you lose it....
It hurts.
When something feels so right and then you find that its wrong.
A part of you dies.
And with every step I take, every time I look in the mirror.
I become more and more distant from who I really am.
How can this be?
It hurts.
God, please make me understand.
Understand why the one thing I love is being taken from me.
What is happening to us?
We are turning on each other.
I feel so much pain.
It hurts.
Why does god laugh at me?
As he ripped the one person, who has meant more to me for the longest time away from my arms.
There is nothing I can do they say.
She is in god's hands, they say.
Fuck that.
If only I could be a doctor now.
I could help her.
She was taken from me so quickly.
Forever.
There is no next time in death.
And there are no exceptions.
I never even got so say goodbye.
With her a part of me died too.
She was my sister and friend.
The only sibling I ever had.
To you as a friend,
I warn you.
Live and love for today.
Because there may not be a tomorrow...
For my loving sister.....Carissa Leigh Whyde
R.I.P.
I LOVE YOU......
I feel you here with me, every minute of every day.
with much love,
Your lil bro,
christopher
