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About 8 months ago I decided to start a grand lifestyle where I would lay around all day, eat alpha-male foods (re: PIZZA), abuse drugs and isolate without consequence. Obviously these were grandiose thoughts. I have been sober for 2 weeks now with the exception of one 10MG Adderall XR per day, prescribed. I am a 26-yo white male, half pack/day smoker, 6'0 175LBS, average BP, no previous health issues, no alcohol consumption.
I had 8 months work-free, zero responsibilities, $80,000 in cash, a german car in the driveway, so basically I was another isolated hollywood celebrity, minus the fame.
Highlights:
18-22 hours/day laying in bed or being sedentary
Eating poorly & excercising never
Using 10-12MG alprazolam every other day, unprescribed, taken orally and attempts at IV a dozen times into arm vein
Using 60-90MG adderall XR per day, unprescribed, taken orally and attempts at IV 2-3 times into arm vein
Using 60-80MG oxycodone or 2-4MG bupe per day, unprescribed, snorted and IV'd about 50/50
Also taking 900MG-1800MG neurontin per day, prescribed for 'anxiety' and taken orally.
Obviously I was in a state of poly-substance induced psychosis mainly towards the end of this run. It was very unsafe IV practices, think the opposite of what we preach here on BL. Pills were crushed, mixed with tap water (no saline), filtered with Newport filter (no micron), re-registered/missed/shot repeated with same rig few times. Terrible, horrible, self-degrading moral line crossing shit. I know better. Thus the reason this is on BL and not WebMD - you all know how psychotropics warp your perception.
I am going to a doctor Monday, if not sooner due to what I'm about to describe:
Currently past physical withdrawals and sleeping normal, taking vitamins, eating healthy. One problem: numbness, tingling, poor temperature in 1st & second toes, pain & pulsations in upper calf/ thigh. Both legs/feet, pretty constant except after aspirin, not muscle pain, not good, I know. I noticed the numbness back when I started taking benzodiazepines and it was relieved with more benzodiazepines, obviously this was simply making me apathetic to my deteriorating condition.
A couple weeks ago I did have a blood test, EKG, vitals taken but did not ask them about what I just mentioned since I was having issues withdrawing at the time. What ever is going on in my legs and feet and toes has something to do with my grand lifestyle choice of these past 8 months and have heard several internet 'theories'. The most terrifying is deep vein thrombosis. The other one that has me anxious is ischemic rest pain, which makes sense because of the fact that these symptoms are highly noticeable while sitting/lying. The other possibility is I'm still in some form of anxiety-heightened state.
Any thoughts would be appreciated, and lastly has anyone heard from negrogesic lately? I miss our resident physician.
I had 8 months work-free, zero responsibilities, $80,000 in cash, a german car in the driveway, so basically I was another isolated hollywood celebrity, minus the fame.
Highlights:
18-22 hours/day laying in bed or being sedentary
Eating poorly & excercising never
Using 10-12MG alprazolam every other day, unprescribed, taken orally and attempts at IV a dozen times into arm vein
Using 60-90MG adderall XR per day, unprescribed, taken orally and attempts at IV 2-3 times into arm vein
Using 60-80MG oxycodone or 2-4MG bupe per day, unprescribed, snorted and IV'd about 50/50
Also taking 900MG-1800MG neurontin per day, prescribed for 'anxiety' and taken orally.
Obviously I was in a state of poly-substance induced psychosis mainly towards the end of this run. It was very unsafe IV practices, think the opposite of what we preach here on BL. Pills were crushed, mixed with tap water (no saline), filtered with Newport filter (no micron), re-registered/missed/shot repeated with same rig few times. Terrible, horrible, self-degrading moral line crossing shit. I know better. Thus the reason this is on BL and not WebMD - you all know how psychotropics warp your perception.
I am going to a doctor Monday, if not sooner due to what I'm about to describe:
Currently past physical withdrawals and sleeping normal, taking vitamins, eating healthy. One problem: numbness, tingling, poor temperature in 1st & second toes, pain & pulsations in upper calf/ thigh. Both legs/feet, pretty constant except after aspirin, not muscle pain, not good, I know. I noticed the numbness back when I started taking benzodiazepines and it was relieved with more benzodiazepines, obviously this was simply making me apathetic to my deteriorating condition.
A couple weeks ago I did have a blood test, EKG, vitals taken but did not ask them about what I just mentioned since I was having issues withdrawing at the time. What ever is going on in my legs and feet and toes has something to do with my grand lifestyle choice of these past 8 months and have heard several internet 'theories'. The most terrifying is deep vein thrombosis. The other one that has me anxious is ischemic rest pain, which makes sense because of the fact that these symptoms are highly noticeable while sitting/lying. The other possibility is I'm still in some form of anxiety-heightened state.
Any thoughts would be appreciated, and lastly has anyone heard from negrogesic lately? I miss our resident physician.
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I wish I could offer more advice, but just know you do have my support.
