is this reality?

[chomp-romp]

I had a mental breakdown a couple months ago and life has not been the same. I gave my friend my ps3 for his birthday and shortly after I felt like something left my body and when that happened I ended in space thinking about out of this world thoughts and ideas that made no sence since then I havent been able to recover. my friend has not talked to me since the incident my parents dont know how to help. since that day things have gotten out of control it feels like my face or my mind is empty and when ever I think of someone it feels like there roaming around and I can have emotional reactions with them inside my face. and everyone I come into contact with seems to take advantage over me with the power of words just by simply asking if I want to come with them or stay at there place and when I say yes it feels like something has left my body I have never experinaced anything like this. now its getting to the point that im playing these weird games to and fors numbers are having more meaning than just being numbers I have lightning flashes when ever I think about a person or a thing. when ever I see a fat person my brain pulls a trigger and I think the word fat in my head and I feel like other people are able to pick up on it. please some one tell me if any of this is normal and if so please tell me how to deal with this and if not please tell me how to be human thanks.

 

[Tommyboy]

You really need to make an appointment with a psychiatrist as soon as possible.

In the meantime you can try to exercise a lot, which can help you feel more human when you feel your body reacting to the exercise, and it can take your mind off of things for a little while.

Are you sleeping well?

 

[chomp-romp]

Ive been to the doctors and all they do is throw head pills my way and that only makes things worse Its tough sleeping when I have so much on my mind. I'm looking to know how to operate as a human being any advice?

 

[Tommyboy]

It seems like you are experiencing some depersonalization among other things, so one of the things that I have found to help is to make my life more structured. Get a daily routine and try to fill your time with healthy things.

I still think that meds will help, it's just a matter of finding the right ones for you.

 

[chomp-romp]

thanks depersonalization sounds right is there anything i can do to help myself?

 

[Miss Kirsty]

Gee hun, this sounds not too nice...Is there anyone you can kinda hang out with?..While the Dark Side is an excellent place for cyber support, i feel you need other help mate....Try looking up on the internet and check for any groups and people doing fun activities?...
Try and find a Dr that understands that you dont want a pill to bandaid your problem...you want a solution..Im sorry i cant be more helpfull to you OP...


I appologise if my comment sounds insentsative or flip OP...Thats not my intention at all...I do realise doing a "fun activity" aint going to solve your probs...Im just thinking about a small diversion if you like...and if you get out in the community its easier to find help...i wish you all the very very best OP