pillopperpay
Greenlighter
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- Oct 27, 2013
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I want to start off by saying that I am new to this site and to harder drugs in general. I used to have a pill snorting and popping habit, but that's mostly it. I have dabbled in MDMA and cocaine but could never afford a steady habit. I hate weed and don't wish to get involved in anything other than cocaine at the moment.
I just turned 21 and am currently working an extremely high-paying job. I went on a bit of a bender for my birthday at the beginning of October and decided to not stop. I've been going through about 1-1.5 g of pretty decent quality coke daily since the 7th. I finally ran out of the good stuff that I had brought down for me from out of the area and am limited to buying in my area (which overcharges like CRAZY for horrible, cut crap). Most of my contacts have moved away for school and I work legitimately 24/7 most weeks, so I had to settle for a less reputable source (ie family member hook up).
I am the paranoid type and have banned myself for life from googling drug questions while high on them, as I will inevitably end up tripping out and thinking I'm dying. That being said, I had to resort to calling the crappy contact and getting overcharged. He charged me for a taste and it was horrible. But you all know yayo, when you start running low, you don't care much. So I bought 2 grams earlier tonight and put away my last 1/2 g of good shit for a rainy day. He sent it to me through my middle-man (see: paranoid) as one large rock. It didn't quite weigh out, but whatever. I wanted my shit and didn't care too much. If it matters, I asked for a ball but he didn't have more than 2 g available. That worried me.
It is a very hard, yellowish rock. It's super difficult to cut up and never gets to be a fine powder (I tried molter/pestle, grating, grinding, razor, lighter, ect.). It tastes odd and doesn't hit me hard at all in the first few minutes. It does numb a bit, but not much. I have always been resistant to lidocaine and novocaine; it sucks for dentist trips, but makes it harder for scumbags to pass shit by me. So anyway, this stuff numbs, but not very much. I've gone through about 3/4 g on top of the 1 g of good stuff I used earlier. I'm barely feeling any effects. I got freaked out that it was crack cocaine at first, because insufflation was having little/no effect. After a few minutes of worrying, I tried to melt some and it didn't crackle and it melted into a goo that looked a lot like when I make caramel and candy from scratch. Stupid, yes, but I inhaled the fumes as scientific research, and I did not get high from it. I THOUGHT I did, but realized after trying both again separately, that I was just getting a delayed high from the snorting. After railing a ridiculous amount earlier, I did get a bit too tweeked and yet, I don't feel that compulsion to go back for more every 10-15 minutes. I'm fine fucking around on the internet for an hour or two without going back. That isn't normal for me. When I binge, I BINGE. Instead, I'm here typing all this and proof-reading mypost. Not normal coked-up behavior, for me at least.
I'm worried that whatever I have isn't even cocaine at all. I put it through a bleach test, nothing odd, just A LOT of non-dissolving cut. Dissolving in water is much of the same, a lot of leftover cut. I've never tried speed or amphetamines or whatever you want to call it, is that a possibility here? I have pretty bad dry mouth and a normal amount of jaw clenching, but I'm worried. I've been tweeked for like 2 hours now. That's never happened, and seems to be actually impossible, even with the best of cocaine. I'm not crazy high, just awake and a bit jittery and in that research mode where I just have to learn as many useless facts I'll never use as it psychically possible. I don't feel intoxicated, just GOOD. Can anyone tell me what I've been snorting? I don't want to do too much of a drug I'm not familiar with, especially since I am alone and have to work in an hour. Also, I was going to have a 32 oz beer to relax to come down for the morning (it's pumpkin spice and I was PSYCHED) but now I'm scared to add any alcohol to the equation. My pulse is normal for me, which is about 110 bpm (I have tachycardia) and my blood pressure is a bit higher than normal. On coke, I usually hit about 145 bpm with pretty high blood pressure. It isn't normal for my heart to be so calm. I'm sure it's a good thing, but I'm stuck wondering what is working overtime with this high instead of my cardiovascular system.
Also, in case it makes a difference, I binged from the afternoon of the 7th to the morning of the 21st then took an ativan and slept 24 straight (only waking up for odd, work-related activities every few hours and then going back to bed) then went from the morning of the 22nd too early on the 25th and slept a few hours, had the 25th to let my nose recover and only did a few bumps sublingually and smoked a couple dipped cigarettes for numb tongue. I know that I am doing it quite often and pushing my tolerance very high, but it's a personal choice, I guess. I don't know if my recent usage is relevant, but there you go. I've done about an ounce of decent quality blow since I started. Is this the problem?
Sorry if I messed up posting or was supposed to use some fake crap to avoid self-incrimination. I'm new, give me a break. Also, please don't tell me to stop doing drugs or worry about my health. I come from a family of addictive personalities, but have always been lucky enough to be able to put down ANYTHING when I want/need to be done with it. I have a good support system and am not worried about spurring an addiction. I simply want to know what I'm putting in my body. Thanks to anyone who bothered to read all this rambling and still feels at all inclined to reply!
I just turned 21 and am currently working an extremely high-paying job. I went on a bit of a bender for my birthday at the beginning of October and decided to not stop. I've been going through about 1-1.5 g of pretty decent quality coke daily since the 7th. I finally ran out of the good stuff that I had brought down for me from out of the area and am limited to buying in my area (which overcharges like CRAZY for horrible, cut crap). Most of my contacts have moved away for school and I work legitimately 24/7 most weeks, so I had to settle for a less reputable source (ie family member hook up).
I am the paranoid type and have banned myself for life from googling drug questions while high on them, as I will inevitably end up tripping out and thinking I'm dying. That being said, I had to resort to calling the crappy contact and getting overcharged. He charged me for a taste and it was horrible. But you all know yayo, when you start running low, you don't care much. So I bought 2 grams earlier tonight and put away my last 1/2 g of good shit for a rainy day. He sent it to me through my middle-man (see: paranoid) as one large rock. It didn't quite weigh out, but whatever. I wanted my shit and didn't care too much. If it matters, I asked for a ball but he didn't have more than 2 g available. That worried me.
It is a very hard, yellowish rock. It's super difficult to cut up and never gets to be a fine powder (I tried molter/pestle, grating, grinding, razor, lighter, ect.). It tastes odd and doesn't hit me hard at all in the first few minutes. It does numb a bit, but not much. I have always been resistant to lidocaine and novocaine; it sucks for dentist trips, but makes it harder for scumbags to pass shit by me. So anyway, this stuff numbs, but not very much. I've gone through about 3/4 g on top of the 1 g of good stuff I used earlier. I'm barely feeling any effects. I got freaked out that it was crack cocaine at first, because insufflation was having little/no effect. After a few minutes of worrying, I tried to melt some and it didn't crackle and it melted into a goo that looked a lot like when I make caramel and candy from scratch. Stupid, yes, but I inhaled the fumes as scientific research, and I did not get high from it. I THOUGHT I did, but realized after trying both again separately, that I was just getting a delayed high from the snorting. After railing a ridiculous amount earlier, I did get a bit too tweeked and yet, I don't feel that compulsion to go back for more every 10-15 minutes. I'm fine fucking around on the internet for an hour or two without going back. That isn't normal for me. When I binge, I BINGE. Instead, I'm here typing all this and proof-reading mypost. Not normal coked-up behavior, for me at least.
I'm worried that whatever I have isn't even cocaine at all. I put it through a bleach test, nothing odd, just A LOT of non-dissolving cut. Dissolving in water is much of the same, a lot of leftover cut. I've never tried speed or amphetamines or whatever you want to call it, is that a possibility here? I have pretty bad dry mouth and a normal amount of jaw clenching, but I'm worried. I've been tweeked for like 2 hours now. That's never happened, and seems to be actually impossible, even with the best of cocaine. I'm not crazy high, just awake and a bit jittery and in that research mode where I just have to learn as many useless facts I'll never use as it psychically possible. I don't feel intoxicated, just GOOD. Can anyone tell me what I've been snorting? I don't want to do too much of a drug I'm not familiar with, especially since I am alone and have to work in an hour. Also, I was going to have a 32 oz beer to relax to come down for the morning (it's pumpkin spice and I was PSYCHED) but now I'm scared to add any alcohol to the equation. My pulse is normal for me, which is about 110 bpm (I have tachycardia) and my blood pressure is a bit higher than normal. On coke, I usually hit about 145 bpm with pretty high blood pressure. It isn't normal for my heart to be so calm. I'm sure it's a good thing, but I'm stuck wondering what is working overtime with this high instead of my cardiovascular system.
Also, in case it makes a difference, I binged from the afternoon of the 7th to the morning of the 21st then took an ativan and slept 24 straight (only waking up for odd, work-related activities every few hours and then going back to bed) then went from the morning of the 22nd too early on the 25th and slept a few hours, had the 25th to let my nose recover and only did a few bumps sublingually and smoked a couple dipped cigarettes for numb tongue. I know that I am doing it quite often and pushing my tolerance very high, but it's a personal choice, I guess. I don't know if my recent usage is relevant, but there you go. I've done about an ounce of decent quality blow since I started. Is this the problem?
Sorry if I messed up posting or was supposed to use some fake crap to avoid self-incrimination. I'm new, give me a break. Also, please don't tell me to stop doing drugs or worry about my health. I come from a family of addictive personalities, but have always been lucky enough to be able to put down ANYTHING when I want/need to be done with it. I have a good support system and am not worried about spurring an addiction. I simply want to know what I'm putting in my body. Thanks to anyone who bothered to read all this rambling and still feels at all inclined to reply!