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Trigger Warning Is this an appropriate place to discuss SH behavior/addiction? I wanted to speak to others about it.

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RepeatedIgnorance2c-74

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Hello all, finally relapsed again after 4 months, it always feels wonderful and somewhat owed to the self, I'm wondering how others who had this addiction eventually let it go, as i think it will be the hardest one, because of how centering it can be.
 
Hey, sorry to hear you had a relapse with that. Compulsive and problematic behaviors can be really hard to get a handle on. I'm not sure I've ever fully let self harm go, although things have gotten a lot better, I think it just manifests in different ways than it did when I was younger. I really had to work on a lot of personal shit through extensive therapy, and working on developing more positive behaviors that weren't so self indulgent. I believe instant gratification is kind of tied in to self harm, and it's a really tricky subject.

But yes, this is the sub forum to talk about that in, I'm just gonna put a prefix on your post to label it.

I caught you on another post, but there you'll find a link to our directory of threads here:

Post in thread 'Ideation & Crisis Support' https://www.bluelight.org/community/threads/ideation-crisis-support.893373/post-16244439
 
It took me a while to let it go, but I eventually was able to stop. I sometimes wonder if my ability to stop is related to me beginning to shoot up, maybe the act of shooting up is gratifying in the same way self harm is, I don't know.
Whenever I want to start up again I just go on a walk, pet my cat or play games. Sounds dumb and simple but it worked for me, especially going on a walk. Removing yourself from the current situation (both literately and mentally) helps alot, as does a change of environment/scenery
It was one of the hardest to stop for me, if I had to rank it with other addictions it would be number 3....with 2 being Opioids and 1 being Nicotine. I have yet to fully quit those two but self harming I was able to stop
I hope you are well
 
krkkhed said:
It took me a while to let it go, but I eventually was able to stop. I sometimes wonder if my ability to stop is related to me beginning to shoot up, maybe the act of shooting up is gratifying in the same way self harm is, I don't know
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You’re the first person I’ve ever seen say this. I have the exact same thoughts about myself. I very much used it as a form of self harm.. I wouldn’t do things properly, on purpose. It’s a very sick part of me that I’m glad is no longer rearing its head in that way. I’m glad you’ve managed to stop the self harm in other ways. It’s not easy but can be done <3
 
pixies+ said:
You’re the first person I’ve ever seen say this. I have the exact same thoughts about myself. I very much used it as a form of self harm.. I wouldn’t do things properly, on purpose. It’s a very sick part of me that I’m glad is no longer rearing its head in that way. I’m glad you’ve managed to stop the self harm in other ways. It’s not easy but can be done <3
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I never would fuck up on purpose but yeah when I did I noticed that sort of feeling and endorphin release.
Thought I was the only one !!
 
deficiT said:
Hey, sorry to hear you had a relapse with that. Compulsive and problematic behaviors can be really hard to get a handle on. I'm not sure I've ever fully let self harm go, although things have gotten a lot better, I think it just manifests in different ways than it did when I was younger. I really had to work on a lot of personal shit through extensive therapy, and working on developing more positive behaviors that weren't so self indulgent. I believe instant gratification is kind of tied in to self harm, and it's a really tricky subject.

But yes, this is the sub forum to talk about that in, I'm just gonna put a prefix on your post to label it.

I caught you on another post, but there you'll find a link to our directory of threads here:

Post in thread 'Ideation & Crisis Support' https://www.bluelight.org/community/threads/ideation-crisis-support.893373/post-16244439
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Hello, hope you're well. Thank you for your reply. Apologies for the delayed response; I’ve been reflecting on shifting from a fast-paced to a delayed mindset, which is challenging. I realize I need to work on personal growth, including managing addictive tendencies like self-harm, which will be tough. I’m exploring DBT therapy, as it's often recommended, and I know I must also address underlying beliefs and patterns. I tend to notice when I’m slipping into old behaviors, which indicates the need for change, but it’s easy to ignore. Could you share what you needed to understand or change yourself first to become less resistant to change?
 
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