cyberius
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Mar 11, 2013
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I've been getting wasted alone for 5 years now. Hiding in my room away from everyone has just become the norm. Nothing really interests me and I'm just anxious lonely bored and tired all the time. I've never grown up and I'm still the same person around the same people I was when I was sixteen.
Why can't I just want to get sober? At this point I'm just using because I don't know how to do anything else. Being social is an exhausting waste of time thats never rewarding but I feel more hollow when I don't. I want life to be rewarding but its just confusing and painful. just wish I could associate any positive feelings with sobriety (that aren't negative related)
Why can't I just want to get sober? At this point I'm just using because I don't know how to do anything else. Being social is an exhausting waste of time thats never rewarding but I feel more hollow when I don't. I want life to be rewarding but its just confusing and painful. just wish I could associate any positive feelings with sobriety (that aren't negative related)