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Is there life after IV addiction?

I've been clean off heroin for over 2 years now. The cravings aren't gone, but they're certainly fewer and farther between than they've ever been. The worst for me were the vivid dreams of using. They'd be so real and it would make me feel off the whole day. Best thing for me was to stay busy any way I could. I found a job, worked as much as possible, hung out with some old and some new friends...err well, an old and a new friend, lol. I picked up a hobby when I read that Oatmeal cartoon about Mantis Shrimp. I had to have one, so I poured all my energy and unfortunately all my money(which I would have just spent on drugs, so I guess it worked out) into it and it's my obsession now. Anyways, my point is keep your mind occupied so you don't have time to think about using.
 
I have been clean off heroin for a month and I thought that was the hard part. WDs sucked but it lasted a few days. My needle fascination/addiction has only gotten worse. Anything water soluble I have tried just to get a rush and to see that ribbon of blood. Needles have completley taken over my life. It is the love of my life more than my girlfriend. It's fucked up but I hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Anyone here have any good news for this struggling junkie. I just made an account but I have been reading bluelight forums for years and it has helped me not hurt myself because I get info on something before I do it. I know there has to be better advice on how to NOT stick another needle in my arm...
- thestruggleisreal
 
ATLL765 said:
I've been clean off heroin for over 2 years now. The cravings aren't gone, but they're certainly fewer and farther between than they've ever been. The worst for me were the vivid dreams of using. .
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The dreams are too real. Mine usually end right before I get high to tease me. Other times I dream about the ribbon of blood drawing up which scares me. What is fucked up is before my addiction these dreams would be nightmares but now they are like heaven. Congrats on your clean time too I have kind of a month so far. From dope at least. Keep killing it dog!
 
My last 2 relapses were because of IV heroin so I learned a lot from this thread. Guess what happened after the first relapse, I ended up in fucking rehab for 2 months got out felt great loved life got a good job and then bam all of a sudden there was nothing in life as good as IV heroin so I relapsed and lost a hot girlfriend, a career, my independence, and now I'm 29 living back home with my parents which is a nightmare in itself.

And now I'm going through mmt withdrawals. Dude it's amazing how cunning it is. I knew I was giving away all that shit I earned after rehab and I could not turn the car around or pick up the phone to call an addict or friend.

It's the devil, it amazes me people make it out of it alive, but they do.
 
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Get2Think said:
My last 2 relapses were because of IV heroin so I learned a lot from this thread. Guess what happened after the first relapse, I ended up in fucking rehab for 2 months got out felt great loved life got a good job and then bam all of a sudden there was nothing in life as good as IV heroin so I relapsed and lost a hot girlfriend, a career, my independence, and now I'm 29 living back home with my parents which is a nightmare in itself.

And now I'm going through mmt withdrawals. Dude it's amazing how cunning it is. I knew I was giving away all that shit I earned after rehab and I could not turn the car around or pick up the phone to call an addict or friend.

It's the devil, it amazes me people make it out of it alive, but they do.
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I am 20 and living with my parents too. I went to rehab and I loved it too. I got high once in rehab which is fucked up. Iv heroin/other drugs is like having that little devil on your shoulder and the angel is non existent, prolly killed by constant addiction. It's hard to call someone before the relapse. I usually call someone after I relapse because I didn't want to deal with the shame sober. I feel for you dog best of luck addiction is where true personal character shows. The storm will get sober and be a better person than before addiction. The weak will.... Well every junkie has seen the worst. RIP ALL THE JUNKIES THAT LOST THE WAR[/FONT]
 
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