Mr Methadone
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- Joined
- Mar 4, 2022
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Hello. I'm new to bluelight and I've been reading through post and I'm wondering if there is anyone else out there who's situation is similar. I am 45 yrs old. I got on methadone when I was 16yrs old and still in high school. At this point that means I've been in continuous methadone maintenance treatment for almost 30 years. I've never been off and only missed days a few times when it snowed in Alabama which is rare. I've been told by my Dr that there is not much research material to be found about someone on methadone for that long and that it's probably pretty rare. I was at 100mg for the first 4 or 5 years until my clinic dropped the 100mg cap and now I'm at 200mg a day. I'm phase 5 which means I go twice a month. I know without doubt I could not detox and live without it. I know myself and when my counselor ask I tell her "I'm a lifer" This bothers her and she says I'm selling myself short but it's true. At this point I've been on it far longer than I was ever not. I don't really remember what it was like to NOT be on it. So unless something changes I will probably die still dosing daily lol. I was recently injured VERY badly at work. A fugitive running from police came through the woods to the mine where I work as night security. He saw me sitting in my car and before I knew he was even there he shot me through the chest with a 30.06 rifle. He then came up to the car and tried cutting my throat to finish me. I came to and fought him off and escaped. After I got away he went on to murder my coworker and then commit suicide when police caught him. This was about 90 days ago on Thanksgiving day. Anyway this awful experience traumatized me and I'm suffering from PTSD. For the first time in about 20yrs I'm struggling to not use other drugs besides my methadone. I have been meddling with things I never did before. I'm hoping going up on my dose might help but my clinic makes it a pain in the ass for phase 5 patients to go up. Anyway, I just wanted to know, has anyone else out there been on it 30yrs? 20yrs? Are you healthy if you have? Long term effects?