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Is there anybody that has been clean from drugs for a substatial amout of time?

ryand123

ryand123

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If so I would love to hear how you did it and how you feel now that your off them?

What's it like to be off drugs and to be truly happy? That is, if you are truly happy now.
 
suessmayr said:
I am 34 days off bupe but fucking miserable and as such probably excluded from the posting criteria.
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dam dude ... are you getting exercise everyday? 34 days is a long fucking time.. if you can last a little longer it will get better after about 90 days
 
I exercise every day even though it is torture, like absolute torture. My body is working fine - more or less - but I'm so depressed and anxious (it's like one impossible, fucked up combination) that everything I do is unpleasant and painful.

I imagine that someone who didnt have mood/anxiety issues would be back on their feet by now, for what it's worth!
 
Don't know if this helps but my best friend is now getting on for 2 years clean from an 11 year heroin addiction. At his worst all his cash was going on heroin even at the expense of food and rent money. He just decided one day to stop and he has not touched it since.
He now looks and feels better than he has done in years. It is the best move he has ever made and he now regrets the years he wasted on drugs. If you can get and stay clean it will be the best thing you ever done.
 
I've been clean from benzos mainly, for 5 months now, started in New Year's Eve, and consume tramadol about once a month when I feel blue.
I did it replacing the benzos with pregabalin (Lyrica, which is useful for almost any withdrawal) and Carisoprodol (Soma) which withdrwawal symptoms seem (at least to me) far more benign than benzo withdrawal symptoms.
After going with a psychologist for a month (I found one that worked), I started with SNRI's, because Noradrenaline RI, work on anxiety, and noradrenaline reinforce new memories, so I just went out, met new people, talked and eventually my brain learned there was nothing wrong or dangerous about it. I have Anxiety Disorders (several disorders).
I just do thinks I love, like programming, when programming I can stay up all night long, it's like a drug to me, I don't need to do drugs when programming, or program while on drugs, like an endorphins thing.
 
Nearly 7 weeks off of everything. I am taking a year break. It is hard

I am afraid next time I use (EDC vegas next year) I will relapse.
I guess I feel better overall but I still miss it. My main motivation here is that I have HPPD and I keep telling myself the longer I am clean, the better it will get
 
I miss drugs so badly. its been 5 days, like the longest amount of time I've been drug free since I started and its not easy. I feel like its one, big change that I've been forced to go along with. I have to stop for court reasons and I'm trying to think about things with a clearer head as well. I know I will get higher when I do eventually start using again but this time around, I plan on being a lot more careful. I've never been addicted to a substance, I have more of a problem living without being able to change how I feel at any given time.
 
longest i have been sober from heroin is about 4 months or so since the day i started.....and yes you start to feel better......

5th day right now.....
 
I consider 'substantial amount of time' to be multiples of years. I've experienced multiples of years of abstinence twice, personally (although currently I have only been completely clean for 309 days).

Happiness? Well, that is a matter of definition. I feel I'm happiest when I am the most at peace. When I'm clean, I'm more at peace and significantly more happy.

Yes, it feels good and yes, it is worth it :)
 
OverDone said:
I consider 'substantial amount of time' to be multiples of years. I've experienced multiples of years of abstinence twice, personally (although currently I have only been completely clean for 309 days).

Happiness? Well, that is a matter of definition. I feel I'm happiest when I am the most at peace. When I'm clean, I'm more at peace and significantly more happy.

Yes, it feels good and yes, it is worth it :)
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You have 309 days clean?! that is so cool! I want to get clean so bad sometimes, but the little voice in my head tells me that i need drugs to feel good. And reading what you said just proves to me that addicts can get clean and feel good without the help of drugs and booze. thank you OverDone =]]]
 
ryand123 said:
You have 309 days clean?! that is so cool! I want to get clean so bad sometimes, but the little voice in my head tells me that i need drugs to feel good. And reading what you said just proves to me that addicts can get clean and feel good without the help of drugs and booze. thank you OverDone =]]]
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here's the real hit, though... I hang with a coupla dudes that have 30 years complete abstinence from all drugs. That blows my mind! Basically, they first got clean when I was 10 years old!!!!!

That gives me a lot of hope and really puts things in perspective
 
I need to start hanging out with people who have gotten sober then I guess! My main problem is I just want "that one last high" ya know? How did you get past that?
 
realizing that there is really no such thing as 'just one more'. Knowing that if I take that first one, it will keep me going down the same path I'm on which would be the exact opposite of change.

There's a saying 'If you keep doing what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always got'. I was tired of 'getting' the same thing I always got. I kept pushing the plunger down pretending it would be different this time. I knew I was bullshitting myself, though.

Nothing changes if nothing changes. You can do it, man. You just really have to want it, badly and go to any lengths. Inpatient, IOP, therapy, etc. Any lengths.

Its very difficult in the beginning. I'm not going to fuck with you and say it isn't. It does get easier in time and, looking back, the time passes very quickly. It seems like its going slowly because of the discomfort that change brings but in the end, it really just flies by
 
Thats real cool that you managed to do it. I know that if I really want it then i can be sober. Its just hard sometimes and i give up too easily. How do you deal with your cravings that part is so hard for me.
 
I have been off Heroin and Cocaine/crack for 9 years total then relapsed on heroin again then went on methadone to Suboxone and weaned off that back onto heroin and back on Methadone weaned off that and been clean now 6 months on Aug. 28th!!
 
i've been off meth since january, weed since march.

been using DXM the past few months but i've stopped that as well; now my only vice are weekend glasses of wine.

what's being sober like? well...

challenging. old habits die hard. i don't mean drug habits: i mean habits i've learned don't make me (or probably you) happy. like internet usage. porn. junk food. coping with stress by mindless pleasure instead of discipline.

that discipline has taken months to gain, and by no means am i close to finished. you have to find something that motivates you, and continues to motivate you. you will lose motivation, but if you keep at it you'll find it shortly again, possibly the very same motivation you had going into it. life's funny that way: doubt is constant. the trick for me is not to fall off the wagon when that happens, and if i do, to get back up the next day, to minimize damage.

over time it becomes habit, it becomes easier to stay on the straight and narrow than to slip up. you notice your improved patience, improved decision-making, and voila: the proof that it's all worth it.

can't stop won't stop
 
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