I'm 17 have experimented since 16 but it has always been around 3 weeks on then flush down toilet if I can't control myself, I feel like I've finally made it past the honeymoon phase of the drug and I am able to have the benefits without the extreme paranoia, extreme euphoria and adrenergic stimulation - the paranoia was justified as meth was my 3rd drug after weed and alcohol. I always used out of a point to combat lethargy and an inability to focus once fatigued.
I am quite worried about the neurotoxic effects, my working memory may be impaired and my decision making is a bit more impulsive. I feel better energy, mood and focus while on - however, I also notice a lot of time is spent researching steroids and various drugs / harm reduction. Going to start memantine within the week to negate harm towards my brain. I have flushed maybe 3 times, first 2 were followed by depression and cravings the most recent one (2.5 weeks ago) was just a lot of sleeping, absolutely 0 cravings and was going to stay sober however I got hypothyroidism around 3 days after ceasing use and gained 12lbs of fluff weight in 4 days making me look fat, GI issues and intense food cravings. I hopped back on and have been dosing around 55-120mg spaced over 38 hour days followed by 8-14hrs of sleep.
The reason for the usage is also defined by my situation, I graduated high school early and am also doing quite well with college (achieving a 4.0) and am working around 60hrs per week w/ construction under my dad to help support him as its just me and him. I have other hobbies and interests as well including bodybuilding, hang w some friends but the use is hush hush. I have dilated pupils especially in the late hours and early hours of the day, I however mostly act indifferent to the mood boost given and wear sunglasses while at work. Over the time period my parents have made maybe around 3-4 comments saying I am amped up on caffeine or slight variants, I've taken non-stigmatized stimulants (caffeine, moda, etc) within the last two years so I have no clue if they're 100% oblivious to the amphetamine use, my dad for instance has mentioned various workers using meth when he was younger but neither of them have challenged me on grounds of drug use - I think it may have to do with my performance?
I am transitioning towards another bulk after my cut using meth mainly as the driving fat loss agent, after doing harsh calories (1500) for 3 weeks and having my last dose as an IV 150mg (first time) I was launched into hypothyroid-like state and I really am just delaying the inevitable, I will be cycling again in 7 days or so - is there anybody with experience or advice on how to go about coming off or is it better to stay on in your opinion since it is helping with life and just take an NMDA agonist. Thanks
I am quite worried about the neurotoxic effects, my working memory may be impaired and my decision making is a bit more impulsive. I feel better energy, mood and focus while on - however, I also notice a lot of time is spent researching steroids and various drugs / harm reduction. Going to start memantine within the week to negate harm towards my brain. I have flushed maybe 3 times, first 2 were followed by depression and cravings the most recent one (2.5 weeks ago) was just a lot of sleeping, absolutely 0 cravings and was going to stay sober however I got hypothyroidism around 3 days after ceasing use and gained 12lbs of fluff weight in 4 days making me look fat, GI issues and intense food cravings. I hopped back on and have been dosing around 55-120mg spaced over 38 hour days followed by 8-14hrs of sleep.
The reason for the usage is also defined by my situation, I graduated high school early and am also doing quite well with college (achieving a 4.0) and am working around 60hrs per week w/ construction under my dad to help support him as its just me and him. I have other hobbies and interests as well including bodybuilding, hang w some friends but the use is hush hush. I have dilated pupils especially in the late hours and early hours of the day, I however mostly act indifferent to the mood boost given and wear sunglasses while at work. Over the time period my parents have made maybe around 3-4 comments saying I am amped up on caffeine or slight variants, I've taken non-stigmatized stimulants (caffeine, moda, etc) within the last two years so I have no clue if they're 100% oblivious to the amphetamine use, my dad for instance has mentioned various workers using meth when he was younger but neither of them have challenged me on grounds of drug use - I think it may have to do with my performance?
I am transitioning towards another bulk after my cut using meth mainly as the driving fat loss agent, after doing harsh calories (1500) for 3 weeks and having my last dose as an IV 150mg (first time) I was launched into hypothyroid-like state and I really am just delaying the inevitable, I will be cycling again in 7 days or so - is there anybody with experience or advice on how to go about coming off or is it better to stay on in your opinion since it is helping with life and just take an NMDA agonist. Thanks