$$$ is the motive...

I'm pretty frustrated right now. Whoever said "More money more problems" is a fucking idiot. 95% of my problems would be solved with just a little more money. I've been looking for a job for the longest (and so has my fiance). Unfortunately because of my rap sheet, which is a novel, no one wants to hire me. I'll go to interviews, they'll tell me that I'm hired as long as the background check checks out, and then I'll either get a phone call or something in the mail saying that I'm not a good fit for what they're looking for. This is exhausting. I don't even get excited for interviews anymore because I know that 99.99999% of places will do a background check. Some of the dumbest places do background checks. I can understand if you're handling money or around expensive shit or something, but a lot of places where I'd just be doing office work background check and it's ridiculous. What, I'm going to steal some paper?? Oh no, I might steal an ink cartridge!! < /sarcasm > I've tried being honest about my background, but when I do that I don't even get a chance to interview.

Financial stress sucks. I'm used to being so independent but because money has run out and I haven't been able to find employment, I feel like I'm a disappointment. To myself, my family, my kids... There are so many things I need money for.

*Court fines/fees/restitution ($1000+)
*To get my driver's license back ($2,200)
*Diapers, 2 packs per week ($12)
*Gas, at LEAST a full tank ($50+)
*Methadone ($45 per week)
*Clothing for my kids (???)
*Miscellaneous other things
*Cigarettes ($6/day)
<--YES I know I can quit smoking, BUT with all this stress, I need something. I'd rather have a cigarette than shoot a bag because I'm trying to stay clean.

Plus I owe money to so many friends/family members it's ridiculous. I'm really frustrated...I'm praying that him or I (or better yet BOTH of us) get hired soon. All I need is a chance from someone. My fiance && I are very hard workers, and if/when we get hired, we would definitely take the job seriously because we're so desperate for employment.

Grr.

This is just my little rant. Thanks for listening. 8)
 
This is sad you have to pay for your methadone. At least it's free where I live. Best of luck for your job ;)
 
Actually 45 US a week is tame for "for profit" clinics. In Tampa, in the mid-1990s I paid 70 a week and if you didn't pay you didn't dose. States like NY offer it free with little trouble but most don't. Then again I now live in a nation that doesn't even have methadone so...45 a week would be a blessing, cheaper than my morphine script for sure.

I don't smoke tobacco but in New York City I believe packs sell for 11 US now, even bootleggers sell for 7 so things could always be worse.



On the job search, are you actually listing convictions on your paperwork? Certain places do DO background checks but most don't and hardly any do it on a Federal level so that simply moving out of state often solves the issue. Money problems can tear a couple apart, I hope you and your fiance stay focused on what really matters, your relationship and your child.
 
Hi hustlababy, i only have this to say, even though i don't know you i feel confident that you are not a disappointment to your family, kids and certainly not yourself, if anything you are credit to them all for all the effort you are putting in to finding work, please don't give up, prove them all wrong and your luck will change... Take care and stay safe.
 
rachamim- i know it's not bad but the clinic is far from my house, i go M,W,F and gas is $12 each time i go. ($12 minimum.) i'm on a waiting list for a state funded clinic, so hopefully i'll get in soon. no i don't list it on my applications/resume but most of the places i've gone to have ended up doing a background check.

thanks for the encouragement everyone :)
 
Arg, I know job hunting can be sooo difficult. I only have myself to worry about for now (thank goodness), I can only imagine that with kids it would add up quickly!

Maybe you could search for ways online to earn a bit of cash? Some things don't pay well but it could help out temporarily, when you're looking for work.

If you can write, you can get writing jobs online. Depending on your interests, there are some things you can do. Nothing that will substitute a full time job but it might make things go better for now :s

Have you tried even jobs like fast food places? I have a diploma but I was applying to fast food places too, just needed a job so badly. (Luckily I got a better job than that)

Ah I'm sorry though :( It sucks!!
 
I'm actually part of this website that I do surveys on and I get $50 every 2 weeks. It's not much but it definitely helps. I never thought about writing. I write as a hobby, and I've been told I have talent but I wouldn't know where to start. Do you know of any specific websites? I'm about to apply at fast food places because at this point I don't know what to do. Thanks for the suggestions. :)
 
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