I'm pretty frustrated right now. Whoever said "More money more problems" is a fucking idiot. 95% of my problems would be solved with just a little more money. I've been looking for a job for the longest (and so has my fiance). Unfortunately because of my rap sheet, which is a novel, no one wants to hire me. I'll go to interviews, they'll tell me that I'm hired as long as the background check checks out, and then I'll either get a phone call or something in the mail saying that I'm not a good fit for what they're looking for. This is exhausting. I don't even get excited for interviews anymore because I know that 99.99999% of places will do a background check. Some of the dumbest places do background checks. I can understand if you're handling money or around expensive shit or something, but a lot of places where I'd just be doing office work background check and it's ridiculous. What, I'm going to steal some paper?? Oh no, I might steal an ink cartridge!! < /sarcasm > I've tried being honest about my background, but when I do that I don't even get a chance to interview.
Financial stress sucks. I'm used to being so independent but because money has run out and I haven't been able to find employment, I feel like I'm a disappointment. To myself, my family, my kids... There are so many things I need money for.
*Court fines/fees/restitution ($1000+)
*To get my driver's license back ($2,200)
*Diapers, 2 packs per week ($12)
*Gas, at LEAST a full tank ($50+)
*Methadone ($45 per week)
*Clothing for my kids (???)
*Miscellaneous other things
*Cigarettes ($6/day) <--YES I know I can quit smoking, BUT with all this stress, I need something. I'd rather have a cigarette than shoot a bag because I'm trying to stay clean.
Plus I owe money to so many friends/family members it's ridiculous. I'm really frustrated...I'm praying that him or I (or better yet BOTH of us) get hired soon. All I need is a chance from someone. My fiance && I are very hard workers, and if/when we get hired, we would definitely take the job seriously because we're so desperate for employment.
Grr.
This is just my little rant. Thanks for listening. 8)
Financial stress sucks. I'm used to being so independent but because money has run out and I haven't been able to find employment, I feel like I'm a disappointment. To myself, my family, my kids... There are so many things I need money for.
*Court fines/fees/restitution ($1000+)
*To get my driver's license back ($2,200)
*Diapers, 2 packs per week ($12)
*Gas, at LEAST a full tank ($50+)
*Methadone ($45 per week)
*Clothing for my kids (???)
*Miscellaneous other things
*Cigarettes ($6/day) <--YES I know I can quit smoking, BUT with all this stress, I need something. I'd rather have a cigarette than shoot a bag because I'm trying to stay clean.
Plus I owe money to so many friends/family members it's ridiculous. I'm really frustrated...I'm praying that him or I (or better yet BOTH of us) get hired soon. All I need is a chance from someone. My fiance && I are very hard workers, and if/when we get hired, we would definitely take the job seriously because we're so desperate for employment.
Grr.
This is just my little rant. Thanks for listening. 8)
