doofhard...
geez with mates like that, who needs enemies?? Im glad to see their being supportive and the caring mates that they are. if you really want a break you need you're mates supporting you and getting behind you to make the break easier instead of being tempters, piss takers or just plain moronic.
I have tried many times now to have a break, and ive found that for me it was something more or less i had to ease into. its very difficult to stop cranking it for say, 6 months, after you've been going hard for well over 18 months, as is the case in my example. I think you have to adopt a realistic approach and accept that yyou'regoing to fuck up here and there, but just keep chipping away at.
Ddon'tthink that going out and not being off chops isnisn'ting to be fun - recently i have had an absolute blast sitting back at some events with a bourbon and coke and just taking it all in. ive hi'vesome piss funny conversations with heaps of off tappers and believe me the conversations ddon'tstop when you say you've had nothing - you should watch the look of disbelief on people's faces at 8am when you say you're running on natural. So believe me when i say its a completely 'new' experience that certainly iisn'tthe end of the world (although somewhat less energetic shall we say).
I also believe that in some respects you can fool yourself into thinking that your off tap when you really araren't You know the sensation, you know what it feels like, how you dance on it etc etc. If you want to get on the same level as everyone, a few drinks and thinking back to a time you were really peaking will kind of put you in the same mindset and you can quite easily relate to other off tappers and talk absolute bullshit all night - it helps me anyway.
The other side of the coin is that you will unfortunately start to notice the seedier aspects of the scene, the dodgy hook ups, the bikies, the wankers. I used to go out and never once be concerned or think 'shit, i better not accidently bump this dude' and so on. this can also be a useful reminder that as much as we would like to think the whole world is full of PLUR, realistically there iisn'treally as much about. It certainly opened my eyes a little and made me realise that perhaps you don't really miss out on too much when you go home at 2am.
good luck with it dude, the next bourbs is on me.