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GanjaQueen

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Hey, everybody, hope you are all having a nice evening. I have experienced this twice- whenever I smoke herb I get sad. I've been smoking 5 yrs + other fun stuff. Recently my boyfriend got arrested three weeks ago and it is difficult to be in the house all by myself. I'm just now starting to feel somewhat okay and I'm not breaking down all of the time, but the two times I've smoked in the last week brought me up to this amazing ecstatic buzz, only for the happiness to subside like a roll that was instantly killed. You guys have had that feeling, right? Well it was JUST like that, and then the sadness came.

I find that since I've been sober for almost 3 weeks and all of a sudden got a hold of some stuff I am happier when sober. When I smoked heavily (I started at 15 and never stopped until 3 weeks ago due to supply) I would get depressed when I wasn't stoned. I feel like when I listen to tunes I get more into them and that can make me happy or sad. Somehow, all of this reminds me of the fact my boyfriend is faced with 10 years. It's really hard to deal with honestly.. and I'm starting to wonder, should I just stop smoking for now? Do you think now I've gone sober for so long I can never turn back? Oh the horror! 8(

Much love,

Ganjaqueen
 
Yeah buds aren't bad for ur health , I suppose if u get more depressed than u initially were after smoking weed then its probably not worth it , but for me weed takes me to a better place for a long enough time to out weigh any risks/consequences .
 
Honestly this sounds like it has less to do with the pot and everything today with your current situation. Your boyfriend got arrested only 3 weeks ago and now your living by yourself. You sound like your experiencing some heavy heavy depression, and substances of all types can bring you momentary relief followed by even more extreme depression when you are in a state like this.

If you found your happier and more able to deal with the situation with sober then i reccomend that for the time being you stay sober as needed. There have been plenty of times in my life when i was unable to deal with certain sad times while intoxicated. And im def one of those people who will get way more depressed if i drink while depressed.


Also i really recommend you check out The Dark Side. Its the area of Bluelight dedicated to the dark times that can come with the lives we live. Im sure you will find others there who have delt with loved ones going to jail, and life on the inside. Also a great place to just share your sad thoughts and receive support. I was thankful to have a place like that to turn to during my darkest moments of addiction.
 
Ive had 5-6 friends in and out of jail and a girlfriend go to jail for 8 months and recently got out but I moved states so I can't really see her , I dealt with that as well as being homeless and addicted to ice and had a pretty good period of time , doing any drugs in front of me had some very interesting encounters .
 
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