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Is LSD pushing me down the path of schizophrenia?

Maybe when you're 30 you'll also figure out that different things work for different people.
 
It doesn't strike me as odd at all really that your trips have opened you up to the possibility of the supernatural when before you were more a man of science so to speak. Altered states of counsciousness allow us access to other worlds and dimensions with infinite possibilities, and psychedelics are powerful in the sense that they produce profound, long lasting changes in perception.

I had my time with LSD, and after years of countless trips I eventually hit a point where my psyche could no longer handle it. This had a lot to do with the direction my life had gone as a consequence of excessive drug use. The pushing of family and friends away ultimately turning me into a loner, someone much more content unbothered in their own private world where others experience could not interfere with my own. I became someone I previously was not, though throughout that period of my life being crazy was something I wanted to achieve, because being bizarre seemed special to me as I felt so completely normal and boring before drugs. Self-destruction became a form of art you could say. My ego swallowed me whole then shattered with me still inside of it.

I think it would be wise to take a break from drugs, at least the LSD, and give yourself time to process and apply what you experienced to your life in a healthy way. The mind can be very unpredictable, introducing us to state changes that we were perhaps not meant to visit. Do not venture outside of your comfort zone unless you are able to accept huge changes in your persona and reality as you know it. Often times these changes can be forever.
 
I really think cats can sense something when were tripping. My kitty always would go and hide under the bed or something even though I wanted to chill with him and pet him, he wouldn't even come out for treats so I had to put them under the bed for him to eat them which is really strange cause normally he comes running.
Next time u trip, if there's a next time, do it away from ur kitty!
 
I find animals in general to be more sensitive to vibrational changes then humans. My dogs can typically sense my mood on facial expressions and body language alone. It's easier for them to pick up on the levels of awareness I am experiencing, and an abnormal or otherwise heightened state of awareness that they are not used to feeling may make them uncomfortable at times being so alien and unfamiliar.
 
Peacephrog1972 said:
Syd was a special case.

The girl he was living with was dosing him on top of what he was already taking. They tripped almost non stop for a whole summer traveling around Europe.

It was said if you went to there flat that you didn't eat or drink anything they served unless you were ready to trip becUse it was most likely dosed.
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I wish I could trip non-stop the whole winter, forgeting about the cold and shit.......but there's no way this could be done...impossible.

P.S. Unless you know something I don't then please share.
 
How much would you need to redose like that? Ive done 2 tabs slept woken up took 3 tabs slept woke up and took 5. First and second days (nights really) I was decently high, on the third trip I took 5 and I was noticeably less high, still felt good but the setting was very different also. But to redose all summer id think youd need 1000s youd need to be a chemist
 
LandsUnknown said:
I doubt you are going schizophrenic. It just sounds like you had a bad trip, and it's normal to not feel right for a few days after a bad experience. Also, your house unfortunately sounds like a shitty setting. If there's supposedly some kinda scary ghost in your house, I personally wouldn't want to trip there. I mean, tripping in a haunted house....... doesn't sound like my idea of a good trip.
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I live in a pretty haunted house and I have to say it is mildly problematic for tripping. It doesn't really affect you at lower doses, but when you start getting to the higher doses some weird shit starts coming through. One time while I was candy flipping, I was getting these horrible vibes from my house. I had a 5 hour long panic attack and I couldn't calm myself down until i took a bunch of kratom. It felt like I was on fire but without the pain. Kind of a very intense prickly heat sensation but without the itching. I was having synesthesia with this almost dull white color (it wasn't in the ordinary spectrum but this is the best description i can give) with little flecks of rainbow skewn throughout it, which was somehow correlating to the burning feeling. This next example could be just a hallucination, but I've never had something like this happen to me before on a trip so I thought I would include it. Another time on an unknown phenethylamine I was lying there in the dark having a good trip but then I started hearing some crazy female voice screaming at me in a reversed audio demonic language or something. All that I said was "I love you" to the voice and it calmed down, eventually fading out of my head.

Some brief examples of things that will happen. Things will randomly go missing. You look for them everywhere, and then you check the first place you originally thought you left it, and it's sitting right there. Once I had a valium sitting on my table and I had 3 people looking for it. All 3 of them witnessed it disappear and then 30 minutes later be in the place it disappeared from. None of them take valium and they're all very good friends who would never lie to me. Another time, my phone went missing so I called it, and it was on a windowsill behind a curtain which I hadn't even been to that day.

When I was really young, maybe 5 or 6, I told my mom that I had been playing with "the little girl downstairs". when she came and checked, there was no little girl, but I was distressed and claimed that my mom had scared her off. The weird thing is, this happened several years before I was even alive, to my mom's friend's little girl. I've woken up to find pitch black silhouettes staring at me, constantly hear footsteps and the faint noise of a rubber ball slowly tapping the floor faster and faster as it bounces, one time my aunt was sleeping in the attic and saw footprints on her bedsheets as if a girl was walking closer and closer to her, and then suddenly she heard a little girl's laughter and the footprints went away. Another time a carpenter working on the roof even claimed that a ghost tried to shove him off the roof unless he gave her something, to this day there's a glass rose in my attic. There are plenty more stories but this post is already way too long.
 
If you believe your house is haunted and take mind altering drugs, that belief can certainly affect your trip.
 
Just naming people who did drugs and had mental illness isn't indicative of anything. I can list people who liked broccoli and had mental illness, but that doesn't mean broccoli causes mental illness.
 
LandsUnknown said:
Your ghosts sound terrifying and aggressive!
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The weird thing is, my mom is like a warding charm. The haunted activity seems to freak out when she leaves, but when she's around, only innocent and mischievous activity happens. I think that it's mostly just innocent fun, but I also think there are 2 people that died in my house and that some of the more aggressive activity can be attributed to a different entity than the girl child. my house was built in the late 1800's or early 1900's. I have actual physical evidence of only one death happening in my house, a grown woman falling down the stairs to her death. That would explain why she was trying to push the carpenter to his death, to suffer the same fate.

Anyway, I've tripped a hundred times in my house. It's completely fine the vast, vast majority of the time. I do sometimes have to avoid higher doses at my house though.
 
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Related advice: don't trip around unicorns or leprechauns. It really freaks them out.
 
bad and traumatic trips always lead to these types of feelings. i'd say that the "bad and traumatic" aspect of the event (in this case, the trip) has more connection to feeling fucked up than the psychedelic aspect.

that is, someone can trip fairly often and "get away with it" and some other one can trip just once and have a very bad trip and feel/be fucked real hard mentally.

if you're feeling the way you feel i'd advise to take an indefinite break away from drugs, until you 'feel' normal again - feeling normal is important. it's good to always remember though that "sanity" is a poorly defined concept. there are lots of legally sane people out there who are completely delusional. wondering about your own sanity is saner than most.
 
OP, I think you'll be fine, but if (even for a moment) you need to ask yourself if LSD is going to permanently make you crazy, then you should probably not take it for a while. I'd say lay off the psychs for a while and report back.
 
LSD is an an amazing chemical, but there is one amazing thing it cannot do, and that is to think for things for you. Any sort of enlightenment or profound discoveries do not originate from this molecule, these come from your self. Your experience will completely depend on your memories, thoughts and perceptions. All LSD is is a tool to create a new perspective and see the world and yourself in a completely different way than you ever have before. To say the whole experience comes from a drug and not your own psyche is extremely narrow minded. On the other hand, it does not really cause one to become enlightened. If enlightenment is what you seek, perhaps you will find it and maybe LSD can help you get there, I don't know. But it does seem to be an enormous catalyst in the creative thought process, and can help you see the ways you have been programmed by society and media and perhaps to break free from some of this conditioning.
 
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