So, let me start by saying that I have done LSD quite a bit before this bad experience, - including trip alone on higher doses - and I have yet to have any auditory hallucinations, outside of when I am under the influence of strong psychedelics. Basically, a month ago I tripped by myself at my house on 2 tabs of very potent LSD. I would describe the way that I think normally as a series of 'thought narratives' with inner monologue, and I assume everyone else is like that, too. But while tripping, I lost all control over what went through my head, I was basically thinking in random, and i mean very random, noises, from a language that is not human.
Not only that, but at the time I was 100% convinced that I was being attacked by an entity that visited me during my trance. It was evil, pure evil, and I remember that I closed my eyes and saw an ocean of fractals surrounding two evil pitch black eyes. I can't stress the nagging feeling I had of it being evil, in a very general sense. I had no evidence in hindsight saying they were evil, but they just seemed very real, and very VERY evil. Back on topic, I was starting to freak out and send myself into a bad trip, and because I was alone I became very scared. I was laying down cuddling my cat, when I opened my eyes and looked over into the eyes of my cat. The lights were off, and in hindsight I now know that cat eyes when in the dark become almost completely black, so it's a natural thing. But at the time I added two and two together, and became convinced that cat was possessed, or was acting as a conduit for the evil spirit.
I didn't hurt the cat or do something stupid, I just changed rooms and removed the cat from myself. I sat back down, but for 3 hours until I came down, I could barely control what I was thinking because the alien language was forcing out everything else. For the next few days I was convinced by extension that my cat herself was evil, and avoided her. Moreover, my 'thought narratives' continued to be sporadic and out-of-the-norm for a couple of days. Eventually I realized how dumb I was acting and everything wen't back to normal, including my mind.
However, that leaves me to wonder, is this hobby of mine going to permanently wreck my mind if I try to go in deep again? Or is it just another bad trip that some people experience? I don't know what to think... I am now paranoid of being paranoid, including being paranoid of my cat. I guess another detail to add, growing up my more spiritual friends both said a dark entity exists in my house (it was built during the cold war and has some secret rooms underground) but because I consider myself more a man of science, I dismissed that as their imagination. If I start to buy into the 'there is an evil entity in my house' am I going crazy, or am I just embracing a less defined side of life? I am definitely never tripping in my house alone again though, that's for sure.
Another thing to add: I have ADD, I dont think that would make a difference but I don't know.
I love acid, and I think it can be super fun. But I don't want to end up like Syd Barrett.
Not only that, but at the time I was 100% convinced that I was being attacked by an entity that visited me during my trance. It was evil, pure evil, and I remember that I closed my eyes and saw an ocean of fractals surrounding two evil pitch black eyes. I can't stress the nagging feeling I had of it being evil, in a very general sense. I had no evidence in hindsight saying they were evil, but they just seemed very real, and very VERY evil. Back on topic, I was starting to freak out and send myself into a bad trip, and because I was alone I became very scared. I was laying down cuddling my cat, when I opened my eyes and looked over into the eyes of my cat. The lights were off, and in hindsight I now know that cat eyes when in the dark become almost completely black, so it's a natural thing. But at the time I added two and two together, and became convinced that cat was possessed, or was acting as a conduit for the evil spirit.
I didn't hurt the cat or do something stupid, I just changed rooms and removed the cat from myself. I sat back down, but for 3 hours until I came down, I could barely control what I was thinking because the alien language was forcing out everything else. For the next few days I was convinced by extension that my cat herself was evil, and avoided her. Moreover, my 'thought narratives' continued to be sporadic and out-of-the-norm for a couple of days. Eventually I realized how dumb I was acting and everything wen't back to normal, including my mind.
However, that leaves me to wonder, is this hobby of mine going to permanently wreck my mind if I try to go in deep again? Or is it just another bad trip that some people experience? I don't know what to think... I am now paranoid of being paranoid, including being paranoid of my cat. I guess another detail to add, growing up my more spiritual friends both said a dark entity exists in my house (it was built during the cold war and has some secret rooms underground) but because I consider myself more a man of science, I dismissed that as their imagination. If I start to buy into the 'there is an evil entity in my house' am I going crazy, or am I just embracing a less defined side of life? I am definitely never tripping in my house alone again though, that's for sure.
Another thing to add: I have ADD, I dont think that would make a difference but I don't know.
I love acid, and I think it can be super fun. But I don't want to end up like Syd Barrett.
