Nooo
Greenlighter
I heard somewhere that if you try crack and decide never to touch it again your chances of relapsing on it goes up each decade. And I've heard plenty crackheads in their 50's say "I went 20 years without touching it"
I tried crack when I was 17, just a little over a year ago, I was like "this shit is too good," and decided never to touch it again. But I still sometimes think about it, I still sometimes have very detailed dreams that even imitate the feeling of the high.
I'm really scared that when I get older I'll lose the motivation to stay away from it. A part of me even tries to justify it by telling myself I can smoke every now and then and still be functional, that most crackheads get to enjoy the drug for decades before it messes them up bad, etc.
But I also heard that most people who try crack are unattracted to it and another part of me hates cocaine and wonders if I'm just making this up out of anxiety. I hate how short the high is and I hate the comedown. Seriously, 8 hours of depression and intense craving isn't worth that high that lasts as long as you hold the smoke in.
Please help.
I tried crack when I was 17, just a little over a year ago, I was like "this shit is too good," and decided never to touch it again. But I still sometimes think about it, I still sometimes have very detailed dreams that even imitate the feeling of the high.
I'm really scared that when I get older I'll lose the motivation to stay away from it. A part of me even tries to justify it by telling myself I can smoke every now and then and still be functional, that most crackheads get to enjoy the drug for decades before it messes them up bad, etc.
But I also heard that most people who try crack are unattracted to it and another part of me hates cocaine and wonders if I'm just making this up out of anxiety. I hate how short the high is and I hate the comedown. Seriously, 8 hours of depression and intense craving isn't worth that high that lasts as long as you hold the smoke in.
Please help.