Intenselife
Bluelighter
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- Aug 4, 2013
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My third time trying to type this thead ugh! Ok, so recently turned 21, and havent drank much until i got this new job a few months ago (because of strict religious family). The only time i enjoyed drinking and did it every weekend for like 6 months (6 beers saturday, 6 sunday total= 12 drinks). But i usually moved onto other substances as i noticed that they were more euphoric, and i felt that alcohol made me overly emotional (probably how i was truly feeling) even though it was only a few times a week.
So after moving to a new city, waiting for nursing school, with a part time job (that has a bar right next to it) i have been drinking their for almost a few months, sometimes when i get to work early, or sometimes when i get off early. Now in the beginning i was having upto 6 drinks (sometimes shots, wine, beer different every time) for 3 times a week (around 18-20 drinks for 3 weeks) enough to avoid hangover. Since with no tolerance at 135 and 5'5 i could slam 6 beers in the past and that was little to no tolerance. Even had 15 shots of vodka in an attempt to black out, but had alcohol poisoning but was only still tipsy.
Anywho to also mention important information i am prescribed (daily 1mg klonopin twice a day that i do not abuse and no it doesn't get me more drunk than without it, also 20mg instant release twice a day, that i only take twice a week to retain positive effects and avoid the negatives, and also 14 soma's (took last one today).
SO after a week of break from drinking due to lack of funds, i had 6 shots yesterday, and obtained marijuana felt good, kinda tired after awhile etc. Fast forward got off work early today for happy hour and took a friend from work with me since we had to a lot to relate about. We had 6 shots straight up, and a long island iced tea (3 shots in each one) so 9 drinks? She was pretty messed up, although i wasn't. Anyways got home smoked = good then took last soma+ better then plugged 30mg+ adderall, (while still tipsy) and i noticed although i feel amazing, their is a hint of emotionalness.
I have seen and am aware of females that do drink (daily or not daily) that tend to be more emotional when they drink, men i've seen to be more aggressive rather than the crying type. I feel the klonopin has stopped a lot of physical symptoms of crying when things get too much, but thinking back to when i didn't even drink much, just on weekends i got real emotional (probably because thats how i truly felt but was supressing it), is that whats happening, or is it not normal to feel emotional when drinking when thinking about certain things???
So after moving to a new city, waiting for nursing school, with a part time job (that has a bar right next to it) i have been drinking their for almost a few months, sometimes when i get to work early, or sometimes when i get off early. Now in the beginning i was having upto 6 drinks (sometimes shots, wine, beer different every time) for 3 times a week (around 18-20 drinks for 3 weeks) enough to avoid hangover. Since with no tolerance at 135 and 5'5 i could slam 6 beers in the past and that was little to no tolerance. Even had 15 shots of vodka in an attempt to black out, but had alcohol poisoning but was only still tipsy.
Anywho to also mention important information i am prescribed (daily 1mg klonopin twice a day that i do not abuse and no it doesn't get me more drunk than without it, also 20mg instant release twice a day, that i only take twice a week to retain positive effects and avoid the negatives, and also 14 soma's (took last one today).
SO after a week of break from drinking due to lack of funds, i had 6 shots yesterday, and obtained marijuana felt good, kinda tired after awhile etc. Fast forward got off work early today for happy hour and took a friend from work with me since we had to a lot to relate about. We had 6 shots straight up, and a long island iced tea (3 shots in each one) so 9 drinks? She was pretty messed up, although i wasn't. Anyways got home smoked = good then took last soma+ better then plugged 30mg+ adderall, (while still tipsy) and i noticed although i feel amazing, their is a hint of emotionalness.
I have seen and am aware of females that do drink (daily or not daily) that tend to be more emotional when they drink, men i've seen to be more aggressive rather than the crying type. I feel the klonopin has stopped a lot of physical symptoms of crying when things get too much, but thinking back to when i didn't even drink much, just on weekends i got real emotional (probably because thats how i truly felt but was supressing it), is that whats happening, or is it not normal to feel emotional when drinking when thinking about certain things???
