i started smoking almost exactly a year ago. when i first started, i would get intense euphoria- mainly in music sounding amazing. i smoked every day but only right before bed... because i had bad anxiety problems. i smoked only at night (only once a day) for about the first 7 months. this summer i kind of lost control. smoked about 4-10 bowls a day, stayed high all day. im back down to a bowl during the day, two at night.
i have noticed a lot of changes in myself and i want to know which of them are directly related to my excessive smoking. i would also like to mention im 17 so a lot of these things could be from just being on the tail end of puberty or whatever. help me sort these out please.
1. Anxiety is less frequent but less predictable, i will sometimes literrally have a panic attack about nothing, not frequently though.
2. i sometimes wake up extremely depressed and not even a few hits will cheer me up. usually goes away on its own a few hours later
3. my libido is screwed up- i'm more about emotions than physical stuff now. being a guy im still more into physical stuff, but for some reason lately i feel like i have more feelings or love for my SO
4. ive always had ADD but i have noticed its gotten way out of hand recently, for example: i will space out if my parents talk for more than 5 seconds, not on purpose. in school i can barely ever zone in... its always been a problem but more lately
5. Some days im way to jacked up on energy or testosterone or something. i want to fuck the girl all night or ill go to the gym and lift lift lift and it feels like i still have lots of energy.
6. i started using opiates (pain pills) before i started smoking. since i started smoking, i actually enjoy them more. but at the same time if i do one line of oxy (dont tell me snorting is bad, i know.) no matter how hard i try i cant resist doing like 4 more. before i was more in control over this
7. Im way more nostalgic. hearing a song that i was really into a year ago will make me feel exactly like i did then. i actually feel happier if it was a good time in my life after hearing the song. its really extreme and kinda wierd
thanks for getting through the long read. answers appreciated.
i have noticed a lot of changes in myself and i want to know which of them are directly related to my excessive smoking. i would also like to mention im 17 so a lot of these things could be from just being on the tail end of puberty or whatever. help me sort these out please.
1. Anxiety is less frequent but less predictable, i will sometimes literrally have a panic attack about nothing, not frequently though.
2. i sometimes wake up extremely depressed and not even a few hits will cheer me up. usually goes away on its own a few hours later
3. my libido is screwed up- i'm more about emotions than physical stuff now. being a guy im still more into physical stuff, but for some reason lately i feel like i have more feelings or love for my SO
4. ive always had ADD but i have noticed its gotten way out of hand recently, for example: i will space out if my parents talk for more than 5 seconds, not on purpose. in school i can barely ever zone in... its always been a problem but more lately
5. Some days im way to jacked up on energy or testosterone or something. i want to fuck the girl all night or ill go to the gym and lift lift lift and it feels like i still have lots of energy.
6. i started using opiates (pain pills) before i started smoking. since i started smoking, i actually enjoy them more. but at the same time if i do one line of oxy (dont tell me snorting is bad, i know.) no matter how hard i try i cant resist doing like 4 more. before i was more in control over this
7. Im way more nostalgic. hearing a song that i was really into a year ago will make me feel exactly like i did then. i actually feel happier if it was a good time in my life after hearing the song. its really extreme and kinda wierd
thanks for getting through the long read. answers appreciated.