pocketsevens
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 22, 2015
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Hi folks,
A few months ago I had Pericarditis and was prescribed 80 pills of 10mg oxycodone. I took 2 daily until the script ran out and noticed many benefits besides just killing the pain from the pericarditis. I noticed I wasn't groggy and I didn't spend my mornings dreaming of going back to bed. I could still feel tired, but it wasn't the soul crushing exhaustion that I'm used to. I just felt happy to be awake and alive. The lack of physical and emotional pain made my life so much better. I have heart problems and I do feel pain from that sometimes, but most of the time I suffer from chronic fatigue; never having any energy. I feel like my whole life is waiting for the moment I can go back to bed. You can't tell a doctor that being tired is "painful" and expect them to understand, but for me, being exhausted is worse than pain. It's hard to feel like life's worth living. I've tried depression medications, adderall, blah blah blah but nothing has ever made me feel so "normal" and content as oxycodone.
I quickly became very fond of the oxycodone, even though I knew it couldn't be a long term relationship. I've been out of it for 3 weeks now and I still can't stop thinking about it. I just want to be able to get out of bed without the pain again. So much so that I've been looking for ways to get the same effect and that's where I found poppy seed tea. I've noticed that most people who talk about it talk about "nodding off" and make it sound like a very intense experience. This isn't what I want. I don't want to lose any awareness of the world around me or get a mind blowing, euphoric high. I just want the pain of being alive to go away. Can I get that from a low dose of PST, or is it simply too strong?
I also noticed people comparing PST to Heroin, which scares me. I have an addictive personality and I don't want to get hooked on heroin or anything like it. Would a very small dose of PST even be comparable to heroin? Is it just too unsafe to use for medical purposes?
A few months ago I had Pericarditis and was prescribed 80 pills of 10mg oxycodone. I took 2 daily until the script ran out and noticed many benefits besides just killing the pain from the pericarditis. I noticed I wasn't groggy and I didn't spend my mornings dreaming of going back to bed. I could still feel tired, but it wasn't the soul crushing exhaustion that I'm used to. I just felt happy to be awake and alive. The lack of physical and emotional pain made my life so much better. I have heart problems and I do feel pain from that sometimes, but most of the time I suffer from chronic fatigue; never having any energy. I feel like my whole life is waiting for the moment I can go back to bed. You can't tell a doctor that being tired is "painful" and expect them to understand, but for me, being exhausted is worse than pain. It's hard to feel like life's worth living. I've tried depression medications, adderall, blah blah blah but nothing has ever made me feel so "normal" and content as oxycodone.
I quickly became very fond of the oxycodone, even though I knew it couldn't be a long term relationship. I've been out of it for 3 weeks now and I still can't stop thinking about it. I just want to be able to get out of bed without the pain again. So much so that I've been looking for ways to get the same effect and that's where I found poppy seed tea. I've noticed that most people who talk about it talk about "nodding off" and make it sound like a very intense experience. This isn't what I want. I don't want to lose any awareness of the world around me or get a mind blowing, euphoric high. I just want the pain of being alive to go away. Can I get that from a low dose of PST, or is it simply too strong?
I also noticed people comparing PST to Heroin, which scares me. I have an addictive personality and I don't want to get hooked on heroin or anything like it. Would a very small dose of PST even be comparable to heroin? Is it just too unsafe to use for medical purposes?