Will01996
Bluelighter
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- Mar 9, 2007
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lacey k said:Lol!! hhahahaha.....
We good. Im actually real happy to see this thread in here becuz word is bond yesterday I was about to start it thinkin it would be a good thread to have.
Anyways, I m jus me today....I been switchin my use into a weird pattern but its kinda workin out better.....What i did was after I got clean for 2 weeks (Yeaaaa go lacey!!! *roll eyes* ) (the longest time i been clean for ....idk how long lol) I started back up with dope again. switched from oxys to dope . tired of the money bullshit n all that. anyways i got on that shit, n i was doin some 3-5 day a week use shit, maybe 6 days on a good week....anyways i just been saying fuckit and not putting no limits on my use. instead of worryin about the shit i just use when its there, switchin it up between dope n oxys n etc when it aint.
so i was doin shit like that for a while, and it started out l ike 5 on 2 off. then 4 on 3 off....then 3 on 4 off....etc...not conciously trying to get it that way but it jus naturally did, thru me not havin money, or ppl not bein around. now i still m on what alot of opiate virgins would consider heavy use, bein a couple days a week but to me its pure freedom not bein hooked on shit whiel still using. ill go back and forth, i aint foolin myself, i know that ill be in w/ds again in this life time, prolly soon, but it feels nice jus for now to have that one part of my life slightly under control. im still a feen tho.
I used pain meds. 3 days on / 4 days off for years. Mondays got to be pretty bad (Monday being the 1st day in a 4 day off period). I wish I could go back to those days. I still think had I not injured my back (and opened a floodgate of medication) I would still be 3 on / 4 off.
Good luck with it LK!
Willie