Well, first post here in Blogs. I'd completely forgotten there was something parallel to the forums on BL. I'm not quite sure what I'll be saying here but well, I love both to write and talk about myself so I'm sure I'll find some stuff 
Currently trying to postpone studying for my philosophy exam. I'm one of those people who preferred to stay outside and smoke during class in high school and who somehow still miraculously made it through, and everyone wonders why. Or maybe it's just that six months of benzo blackouts have made me forget how to actually work. In any case, this is going very slowly and unproductively and it's getting quite frustrating.
It's been a difficult year and I'm glad things are finally starting to settle down a little. Can't say I'm thrilled with the way my life is right now, but at least I've torn myself away from my previous addictions (about a month clean both from heroin and benzos, hooray) and I'm starting to finally really get to know some people here. Moving to a new country on your own really is quite daunting. Especially knowing all my friends are still together back home. I have to confess I didn't expect to miss them this much - or my family, for that matter.
But it was also good for me to get this fresh start, a jab at a new life, I think. I needed it.
Just got back from watching American Psycho with a few people upstairs, that was pretty cool although I'm too creeped out to go to sleep now, ha. Somehow the conversation turned to drug use and they were all talking about 'tripping so hard on codeine' and I just sat there awkwarkly thinking about how much I wanted heroin. It wasn't nice. It's so strange to have that sort of secret that no one suspects. I wonder what other people are hiding.
Currently trying to postpone studying for my philosophy exam. I'm one of those people who preferred to stay outside and smoke during class in high school and who somehow still miraculously made it through, and everyone wonders why. Or maybe it's just that six months of benzo blackouts have made me forget how to actually work. In any case, this is going very slowly and unproductively and it's getting quite frustrating.
It's been a difficult year and I'm glad things are finally starting to settle down a little. Can't say I'm thrilled with the way my life is right now, but at least I've torn myself away from my previous addictions (about a month clean both from heroin and benzos, hooray) and I'm starting to finally really get to know some people here. Moving to a new country on your own really is quite daunting. Especially knowing all my friends are still together back home. I have to confess I didn't expect to miss them this much - or my family, for that matter.
But it was also good for me to get this fresh start, a jab at a new life, I think. I needed it.
Just got back from watching American Psycho with a few people upstairs, that was pretty cool although I'm too creeped out to go to sleep now, ha. Somehow the conversation turned to drug use and they were all talking about 'tripping so hard on codeine' and I just sat there awkwarkly thinking about how much I wanted heroin. It wasn't nice. It's so strange to have that sort of secret that no one suspects. I wonder what other people are hiding.