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wow 30 tabs of tramadol, do you not worry about seizures? I loved ultram too, but as far as I could tell it had a cap of about 700mg like codeine bottoms around 340mg I believe. It is also a powerful SNRI which may make you feel more addicted to it. But good to have you and I will be rootin for you.
 
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wow 30 tabs of tramadol, do you not worry about seizures? I loved ultram too, but as far as I could tell it had a cap of about 700mg like codeine bottoms around 340mg I believe. It is also a powerful SNRI which may make you feel more addicted to it. But good to have you and I will be rootin for you.
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I've been at this level for 6 to 8 months, and have not suffered anything. Not bragging by any means though. It will take a S--L--O--W taper for me to knock it down from 30 to 20, but that is where I'm headed! Thanks for the support!:):)
 
Hi All,

I made a post in new members on the forum index ... But I find myself in here alot.

What to say?! About 9 years ago (wow, it's been that long?!) I was heavily into MDMA and coke ... And after blacking out one night and my boyfriend going to jail, I decided enough was enough. Fast forward 5 years, I met my husband, who intoduced me to tramadol. Fast forward 3 more years and now my DOC is adderall (and tramadol - but I recently quit because I felt tolerance was getting too high).

I truly enjoy reading all of the posts here and sharing with all of you <3
 
Welcome to TDS serendipitous :)
That is really admirable that you quit tramadol because you recognised it was becoming an issue. That shows great strength and foresight <3
 
Lol, thanks. I say lol because I never really did "research" and just ate 'em. Since I have had a seizure (and yes, still choose to use as they are easily accessable), and eventually learned about the 400 mg mark, I felt I was playing with fire.

Looking forward to getting to know fellows TDS :) xoxo
 
Oh hai :)

I've been lurking on and off for a while now, so thought i'd join in.
Not quite ready to post my stories with any length just yet, but in time I hope i'll overcome that.
I wish i'd have found this place 5 years ago, it might have helped me though some real f*&ked up times, and prevented me from doing some really silly things 8)

At the moment my only vices are cigarettes and tea, so I suppose in joining I hope to maybe help someone else out who's having a bit of a shit time in life...

I'd also like to say that I think this forum is invaluble for so many reasons, for so many people in all walks of life, and have been quite surprised over the last few days (I have been reading threads extensively %)) at how supportive you all are, mostly to strangers you've never met.
Christ, most of my friends aren't nearly as supportive as a lot of you guys are, so seriously, thumbs up to all of you. <3

Um.......that's all (for now) =D
 
^Thanks! :)
Welcome to BL and Welcome to TDS!!!
I do hope in time you will share your story- but we always love to see TDS spread the support, positive energy and love- so I am glad to see you are here to help with that ;)
 
new old member... I'm baaaa-ack!

got locked up for a few yearz but homie, i'm back!!! itz a whole world out here. i got 20 yearz on paper so im tryna be legit this time. no more slangin dope. rap music my drug now. i dont need dat other shit. i just need 2 tryta hear all da good rap i missed out on while i waz lockd up cuz thatz all i really give a f*** about anyway.

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Hey guys, I'm not new, but I thought it might be relevant to say I can stand to come back to this place after two years of opiate addiction. I'm about two weeks clean and I'm feeling great. I'm on medication for the first time in a long time to deal with stress and focus (Celexa and Adderall) and though the antidepressants havn't started working, I'm very happy to be off of opiates. It was truly hell, but coming off of it was thankfully not too bad thanks to a large amount of klonopin I had. Still get cravings, but not nearly as much as I was expecting.

All in all I'm generally going through a transitional phase in my life. I was in a dark, dark place for a long time, but I feel hopeful for the first time in ages. Now I can actually stand the sight of these forums; coming here made me ashamed of my addiction.
 
^Hi :) Well, it is GREAT to hear you are doing well!!!
You might want to check out our monthly sober/abstinence thread- (found under clever little names such as Lesscember, CanU?ary etc.) . You might have experience that will help someone get to where you are at- or just want to share with someone in a similar situation as yourself.......AND of course it is a GREAT place to get support for yourself!
:)
 
fuck

omfg!
I am so fucking sick!
I want sobriety!!!!
I want my life back! I had it all I want to get well I am so no kidding. Any advice will be helpfull!This is fucking ridiculous! I am fine as long as I have opiates to put into my system. I cant even get out of bed unless I have 4 Mg. Of hydromorphone to stick up my arm. There has got to be a way to kick this madness!!!! Please someone tell me a way to do this. I have any an every presciption drug at my disposal ( dont ask hoW ). WHAT DO i NEED TO GET ME OFF THESE OPIATES? I am about to eat a buckshot sandwich! I cannot take this withdrawal! help me.....this sucks! My DOC is oxycodone....if not that then Morphine....then Hydromorphone. I just want to go to sleep...and stay that way.... until it is over. Is cold turkey the only option? This sucks! any i9nput will be appreciated. I will wake up in the morning and shoot 4 mg of dillaudiud just to be able to make coffee. my god in heaven please someone give me an answer! I have a 6 month old baby that is dependant on me. But as long as I am doing thgis garbage I am useless!!! God please help me......:(
 
42 year old veteran that slowly withdrew from most forms of life after service. now spend most of my nights watchin seventies british comedy to help with my depression. works for me...

right now, im in to "some mothers do `ave em", hence the moniker.

as for drugs, i have the daily (and nightly) spliff. drinking sessions usually occur on a friday or saturday night, depending on what day im working next. its usually a "pissy pants" type scenario and i wouldnt want to do my job with a hangover.

hoping to learn form each other here.
 
^^ Hi frank, welcome to Bluelight :)
I hope you find some info on here that both interests and helps you <3


brownshirt, man it really sucks to hear you're having such a hard time with your addiction. Please know that this is not the way you have to live forever. There is so much more to life, and you will find it. There is a lot of help available for people in your situation, perhaps start with these threads:
Treatment Services (I just linked from page 2 because everything on page 1 is for Australian services)
Heroin/Opiates thread
Could you perhaps approach your doctor to discuss your options? What region are you in?
 
it certainly IS interesting...8o im sure it has to be better than talking to *most* doctors out there.

thanks for your welcome !
 
Hey guys and gals, thanks for keeping alive this lively forum!
I've been addicted to drugs for years, in a functional but private (... «private» as in «secret») way. I'm 28, and have spent the last 14 years of my life carefully hiding it. I really appreciate reading the harm-reduction oriented threads that I've found here.
Using solo makes it a lot worse, as I have nobody to share the bliss/pain of my drug use with.

... et salut à tous ceux qui sont dans la même situation à Montréal :)
 
Wecome to the dark side. I hope you enjoy this forum. Also the more canadians the better.
 
hello!!! I'm a 36 year old white guy that lives in vallejo, CA...I'm also a daily meth user..and I smoke a lot of really super heavy duty killer bud. Speed is my poison, however...
 
Hello, I've been lurking for a while but I finally decided to make an account and post.

I've been doing heroin for about 1 year now, drugs for about 4 years. I'm 17 and still currently addicted to heroin. I've tryed getting off over and over. Still live with my parents and they have their suspicions but they still have no clue I'm a heroin addict. And if they knew....I don't want to think of the day..
 
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