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welcome FnX - if u like theres a benzo MEGA-thread u may find helpful and supportive (use the search engine)

i identify with ur post 100% - i was shoved on clonazepam for epilepsy and promised i wud never develop withdrawals if i continued to take the pills at the prescribed dose
wat a load of BS - i wish id learnt about rebound wds before i started taking clonazepam....cos then i wud never hav taken it!
i fucking hate benzos - and its posts like urs that remind me why

unlike u, i hav opted to switch to diazepam and come off 1mg/month as it is safer that way for me, as an epileptic (my seizures terrify me)

mate, i just want to say, if u dont want to post in the benzo MEGA-thread but u need to get shit off ur chest about these evil pills that ruin lives, prescribed or not (ironically legal drugs like alcohol and benzos r much worse IMO than relatively benign illegal drugs like cannabis!) u can PM me anytime

greenlighters cant PM BLers but u can PM me cos im a mod - and im happy to lend an ear and give u encouragement.....i think ur very brave!

ur psych sounds like a dickwad - prescribing benzos for depression? surely he must know that one side effect of benzos is they can make ppl more depressed!

ill also add about the pot - THC and other cannabinoids hav bn found to actually relieve symptoms of epilepsy
i hav never fitted on even really high doses of pot - it may actually raise ur seizure threshold, unless u develop a physical dependency on it, in which case u may start having seizures wen ur not stoned (this is rare but in the case of someone coming off benzos i wud recommend only occasional pot use wen ur feeling really panicky - if it helps with ur anxiety that is.....marijuana can make some ppl anxious)

anyway, kudos to fighting the benzo blues and plz remember i welcome any PMs if u want someone going thru something similar to talk to
 
My name is Daniel.I live in Wa state (usa) My drugs of choice are opiates.I also like to drink,smoke weed,snort a little coke/meth but I LOVE smoking black tar.
 
welcome daniel
i used to use black tar as well - just watch out, if ur not addicted already, it can really fuck u over, like any other form of heroin (or any opiate ftm)
 
Hey, I am new to this public discussion thing so go easy on me! I am 28 yrs old and have been battling drug and alcohol addiction for about 10 yrs now. I also happen to be at the edge of sanity at the moment. Okay, not just this moment....... Every waking moment;) My sense of humor happens to be my favorite defense mechanism, and I use it daily. I am hoping to get some mental clarity here. Maybe you guys can help reassure me that I am not crazy, the world is...
 
Hi there folks, I'm a lurker, been lurking for about a month now and finally decided I was ready to talk...

I'm 35 and a gov't poster child for DARE, hell I was the Friday Night Live President (kinda like a DARE club) in my high school, my senior year I left a New Year's Eve party because they opened a bottle of Champagne. I believed it all!

So my DOC...I'm not sure I have one except for alcohol...that's where it all starts and circles back around to. I come from a long line of Alcoholics...but have only recently thought of myself as an alcoholic. I've had friends who have done drugs, I've even been around them when they were doing it (coke, MJ) for years. My work status stopped me from doing it but that changed over a year ago and I decided to partake. The first try out of the box was "edit"...LOVED IT! About 3 months later I "edit" Then upon a crazed looking to buy something to change my state of mind about 4 months found and did some "edit"...what a great experience! And then just talking with my dealer (I have a dealer now)...found out what he really deals is "edit" so decided to try that and...REALLY LOVED IT!

So here I am...there's more to the story, but I'm not ready to talk about it yet so will continue to lurk...just glad I've found somewhere I'm comfortable.
 
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Welcome Ryka :) I'm glad you are ready to talk. The rest of the story will unfold on your schedule by your comfort level. It is great we have a place where we can talk freely about when drugs suck as well as when they are perfect. This, The Dark Side forum, is especially about dealing with drugs when they are not a positive influence on our lives or other aspects of life have become particularly heavy.

Anyways, essential message is we are glad you are here. Your post indicated there are things you are not ready to disclose, and that is a very sensible way to be imo. Bluelight is all about you engaging things at your own comfort level. Well except when we have done too much of something or another ;) So enjoy and contribute what you'd like at your pleasure.
 
Hello TDS. I've been a member of BL for a while now and I truly love this place. I try to log on at least once a day and I even made a contribution earlier this year. Sadly, this is my first post in TDS and I'm hoping for some help.

We have both been using drugs for a long time. We started around the age of 12 with pot and alcohol (I'm 29 and she's 25 now, and we've been together for 9 years, but have only been married 6 months). We soon graduated to heavier substances and went through an LSD phase of dropping 1-2 times per week for about a year. We've each done MANY different drugs, but our main problem at this point is opiates (big shocker). We also smoke weed daily, but we're cutting that out. We've done it before and we can again, so that's not an issue. So, onto the main issue...

Poppy pods. As with most, our opiate use started with pain killers (vicodin, oxy, etc). We went on kicks for 5-7 days, but never worked up an addiction. We started with tea a little over a year ago. It took about 4-5 months and we found ourselves drinking it every day. So now we've been daily pod users for about 8 months. We switched from tea to straight grounds about 3 months ago, and now it's getting bad. We're not horrible by any means and I'm very thankful that our tolerance is still relatively low. Currently we each take 10 grams of powder per day. I won't go into it all here, but we're desperate to get off these damn things. We can't go more than 24 hours before the wd sets in and we feel like shit every morning. At this point I feel like I've been on pods for a lifetime and everything we do revolves around dosing times and preparation. We feel like slaves. We each sit in the bathroom at our places of work every day and choke down our powder. We hate it and we want out. Not just the pods, but all drugs. We've both spent more than half our lives using some kind of drug and we think we'd like to try true sobriety for a change. We want kids and we're ready to start our lives. I hope TDS can help us.

Also, my wife went through a terrible time getting off klonopin and zoloft two years ago. As with many, she got tossed on benzos and SSRIs by her regular doctor. I helped her through that and I'm so proud of her for kicking them, but now we're both addicted to something and it's going to be tough.

I hope that wasn't too long. I'll make a new thread for specifics. Thanks all!
 
Welcome dankoni :) I'll watch for your new thread and I look forward to your contributions. I too hope TDS is of help to you w/ your opiate situation.
 
Hello everyone, my name is Alistair, I am 22 years old, and I like to think of myself as a writer, and actor. I love poetry, so, if anyone would like to share some of their work with me that would be lovely. Other than that, I don't have much else to say, except that I have recently become a fan of MDMA. I think it's fucking brilliant. Cheers.
 
My name's Austin, I live in Colorado and I've posted here a few times but didn't see this thread until now. I quit using cocaine after a three month relapse a bit over two years ago. I went through some tough things in my personal life a little over three weeks ago and relapsed again, and that's pretty much where I've been at since then. I consider myself at least decently educated and hope I can help out anyone here who needs it.
 
Hey everyone. As you can see I've been on Bluelight for a LONG time. :)

When I first joined Bluelight way back in the day, I was really into MDMA as you could have guessed. I went through a period of about 2 years where I was taking pills on a weekly basis. Luckily that eventually got old and now I take E about once a year, if that.

The reason I'm here today though is because of opiates. I have some degenerative discs in my back, so about 3 years ago I was prescribed Vicodin. For about the last 2 years I've been taking Norco's on a daily basis. They never really helped much with the back pain, I was using them entirely for recreational purposes. Now I almost feel a little silly posting here because I was luckily able to keep my dosage in check for the most part. Even though I took pills literally every day for 2 years, my usual dose was only 20mg and I never took over 30mg. I've also been able to randomly score Oxycodone from docs during this time and my usual dosage of that was only 10-15mg.

Anyways even though my dosage never spiraled out of control I've finally decided enough is enough. I'm tired of those little yellow pills being the thing I look forward to the most every day. My latest script ran out a few days ago and I'm trying to be strong and not call for a refill. So far it's been about 65 hours since I last took any opiates, and that's the longest I've gone in years. I'm hopeful that I can stick with it and finally get away from them. I've been really surprised with the minimal physical withdrawal symptoms up to this point. I know my dosage was fairly low, but I figured after taking them literally ever day for years that I would have some hell to pay. Insomnia has been the only really bad problem, which is why I'm on BL at 5:00 AM. :)

Anyways, I'm glad to be here and thanks.
 
Welcome Harrisment and Morgenstern....... :)

Harrisment- Don't feel silly posting in TDS- People post for many different reasons-
And you have valid concern.......hopefully insomnia will be your biggest issue.....
I hope to read many more posts from you-
Please keep us updated on your situation!
I wish you lots of luck...:)
 
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