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Hey I am Keiths31. I have been a member of BL for a while, but just started lurking in the Dark Side as I have been looking for topics that may relate to me.
I have given up all drugs and couldn't be happier. I have recently separated from my wife in part due to her drug use. She got me into E and cocaine over a year ago. I used it as a crutch to "connect" with her as our marriage was in trouble from her using drugs in the past during our relationship. I figured if I can't make her stop...join her. Big mistake.
I didn't like what it did to me. I didn't like what it did to her. I made the decision to stop using...including my beloved pot...and she couldn't make that same commitment. We have two young children and I didn't want them to have parents who used. (Although I never ever used when the kids were home or if I was around them) I wanted to leave all that behind us (I am 32 years old) and she wasn't ready to yet. She still wants to do her drugs and go to the bars and party until 6:00 am.
So after a few long talks, we decided to split up. So now I am a happily single father of two children and I haven't touched drugs of any kind in months.

...um....that is all for now I guess
 
Welcome my friend. I am a single mother of three daughters and I can tell you this, it is hard as hell. If you ever want to chat or just vent. Well, just let me know. Hugs and kisses.
 
Don't think I've ever posted in this thread .. I'll definately be reading thru it all tonite.

A bit about me .. I'm 22; live in the Pacific NorthWest US.
Struggled with depressive issues for about 10 years now. Always was the shy/abused smart kid [tho now I feel I've lost all my intelligence].
I've got a dual-major summa cum laude B.S. degree, which I now feel is entirely useless [can't land a decent job 1.5 years out of University].
Started using any drugs I could acquire when I was 16. Was a moderate BL contributor & DITM Mod until I discovered oxycontin @ age 19 .. fucked some shit up, got addicted, started the long downward spiral, from which I've never seemed to recover.
Once loved MDMA; my main loves are opiates & cannabis [good replacements for the interpersonal love/life purpose I've always lacked]; sadly, I'm seperated from both of these, stuck only with horrid alcohol most days.

Pretty much have browsed TDS exclusively for a year or three; posting the occasional selfish, uninsightful comment. I'd love to be a positive contributor some day, but I'll have to conquer my own troubles first. Feel free to AIM me some time, though I usually can't be of much service.
 
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Welcome my friend. I am a single mother of three daughters and I can tell you this, it is hard as hell. If you ever want to chat or just vent. Well, just let me know. Hugs and kisses.
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Thanks!!
 


Originally posted by WC;

anyways i do xtacy and pot im not a very happy person at most times and often think of suicide yet those thoughts are leaving me
i have had a very fucked up childhood and i keep to myself keeping all my problems deepdown inside me
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GOD man WC I totally recognise the feelings you have!!!! (HONESTXXXXX).

BUT here is the place to get those feelings out verbally (so to speak) ~ coz at the end of the day it really does help to do such a thing (i.e. VENT and as loud and as truthfully as poss!!!).

It's GREAT to see you've joined the darkside club coz like ye say YOU might be able to offer advice / comfort to others!!!!!

SO rock on my lovelyxxxxx!!!

LOTS of LOVE

M 'n' M xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
Hello Dark Side - hopefully you have room for one more :) I'm from Northern California and have been a lurker for quite sometime, and finally decided like so many others that this is a good place to be.

I am currently on a Suboxone regimen of 4mg daily, though I honestly do love opiates and find myself 'taking breaks' here and there to dance with the warm feelings I hold so dear to my heart. I also booze it up quite a bit, though have travelled down many other roads over the years.

My main passion in life is music, and I have found drugs can both enhance and take away from such - still, after all this time, music has always been there for me as the constant. I love all music and also have been DJing on turntables for 15 years; these days I play mainly house out (deep/funky/tech/SF-Chicago), though I have played breaks, drum & bass, IDM and trance at raves dating back to the 90's. Also play guitar and keyboard. Love Macs, though not a PC hater.

Anyhow, much love to all and thanks in advance for everything past and future!

Cheers - Hoss
 
hi all!

im carly *waves*

TDS is my favorite forum on bluelight :) because it's full of compassion. Something i wish there was more of in the world.

Im 20 and a female melbournian (think i already said that somewhere in here tho lol)

Optimism seems to help me a lot but have been told in the past im a little off with the fairies. Whatever works for you hey. il always be an unjudgemental shoulder to cry on, for anyone who need's or want's my shoulder or ears or hands or feet ~ whatever works at the time really.

Bluelight has helped me discover a lot about myself and i like to give back as much as i can to you all because you have all helped me.

*HUGS* =D lol
 
Welcomes to Cruella, Keiths, SilverFeniks, Hoss & Ocean. Glad your all on-board. I feel that TDS is the place where the 'grown ups' chat, while the Lounge should be recast as the Creche.
There are a whole group of dedicated, loyal & supportive people on TDS and it's moderated to a much higher standard (as it should be). Once again, thanks to all the mods, you guys are great.
I'm on the first rung of the counselling ladder but besides being supportive & suggesting ways to get help, I don't councel people over the internet, it's just not right.
If I can help, I will.

Love to you all,
Sean
 
My sensitive soul shall steer clear of the lounge =D
Thanks for the kind words and helpful advice
 

HOWDY there HOS!!!!! xxx

Hello Dark Side - hopefully you have room for one more
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Of course we have ~ NOW COME ON EVERYONE BUDGE UP & BLOODY HELL MAN EVERYONE BREATH IN!!!!! Please like I'm a suffocating!!!

BUT no seriously welcome my pet lamb (HOS) !!!!


LOTS of LOVE

M 'n' M xxxxxxxx
 
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hey! sorry man, this thread sometimes gets lost in the sea of stickies :\

i relate to much of what your saying, sans some of the drug issues; we seem to have much the same philosophy regarding life, love, etc... good luck i hope you post more often :)
 
Saying Hello:)

I had an account with bluelighter status previously, but I wanted to start a new one to document my slip up with cocaine. I have been lurking and posting occasionally on and off for the last 18 months. Prior to the cocaine party, I used MDMA, Ketamine, and GHB all within moderate and recreational levels. My friends consider me a wealth of knowledge as I have always researched things meticulously.

Female, 30's, single, no kids, hard working professional, located all over the East Coast, United States. Anything else, just ask.

Thanks for reading!
 
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