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Hi all. I enjoy bananas and oranges. (Please do not talk about current drug use in any way that may be triggering to others-You can see the TDS Guidelines on TDS' front page for more information) i cant stop typing :\8o
 
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Introduction

Hi everyone,

I just moved here from drugs-forum. I am a 23 year old man struggling with addiction and anxiety issues. I have nearly all of my life.:( Im not a big poster, I dont post for the sake of posting, so when I do, it has meaning. Hopefully I can take a little from here and give alot. Thanks
 
Welcome to the better message board, Deluded! ;)

In all sincerity, though, this is a great forum and in here, along with in other BL forums, you'll find good information and stories about people's struggles with addictions and anxiety disorders. Will be looking forward to your posts, as quality contributions are always welcomed.

Hopefully you can take a lot and give a lot!
 
Hi,
Long time lurker on this great site. Without doubt the most in depth database of drugs known to man! Like deluded, have addiction problems to deal with social anxiety since I was a teenager. Hope to post some of my experiences and give something back, I feel i owe it to you all!

Peace
 
Im an ex-poster, just got a new account. Just reading for now ... registered to make one post.
 
Heya

My name is Kim. I am in my late thirties and have struggled for a large part of that time. I have used nearly every drug out there. I realize I am an addict and have had years clean. I have now come to the realization that while I cannot live that "lifestyle" any longer I also cannot accept that I can never use again. I am instead focusing more of my time and energy on the people around me. BUT, on those occasions when I do want to use it has to be me alone. I cannot be around other users as this has created much havoc and I cannot let my loved ones know. And so, it has to be infrequently and in small amounts. Of course, I have tried this before with disastrous results. It is very difficult to work out so that the time alone, the place of use and the acquisition of said substance all come together. Perhaps I will grow tired of the mission as it decreases in frequency.
But, after four months of rehab and steady treatment for my manic depression, I seem to have come to a better place. I'm more patient about the whole idea.

I have seen and done a lot in my time here on earth and so
I do feel that I have something to offer in this forum, on many levels, and hope to get to know some of you. I am an open book and enjoy helping others.
 
^^ Hi Kim, welcome to The Dark Side, very glad to have you here <3
Thanks for sharing a bit of insight in to your journey. It sounds like you're in a pretty good place these days considering the small relapses you might have. And it does indeed sound like you'll have a lot to offer other people in here. Looking forward to seeing more from you hun :)
 
Been reading for a bit here, but registered yesterday. So I'm a newbie, my name is Adam 38, live in Florida. I'm a real estate investor. LOL Need I say more?
 
Welcoming thread. Thanks.

Trying to set some reasonable morals and guidelines for myself before my life gets any worse.


Slainte,
dococ
 
Hi Adam and dococ, welcome to you both! It's good to have you here :)
I hope you both find the information and support that you're looking for <3
 
Hi TDS. Am a lurker turned poster. lol

8 years and counting of addiction free life. Except ciggies ARGGH!

Maybe I can stop someone visiting a few places I went on my journey?
 
Hi Dave, welcome to The Dark Side :)
Congrats on 8 years clean!! That is so awesome! I'm sure you have a wealth of experiences and advice to offer to many people on here.
Hope you enjoy your time here man <3
 
I'm a 26 yr old phyiotherapist from Hamburg, Germany with a 9months old babygirl and a fucked up relationshit that gets the best of me. I feel like I've started slipping into an opioid addiction before I ever even tried them. I feel like my future is already determined and I'm gonna end up with withdrawl after withdrawl and relapse after relapse and every person and everything valuable lost in a few years. I'm not really that far yet, not at all, I could probably remember everytime I've done opioids and have only IV'ed them once. What gets me worried is my years (400h of therapy) of trying to stop the process without success. I have an estimated 60years to go and I'm scared shitless. It's like I'm driving a car and know exactly where to go and everything should be fine, except there's no steering wheel.
 
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Hey everyone, I found these boards about a week ago and am so grateful or them!! I'm helle, 28, 10 ears of addiction behind me, for the most part - i'm on bupe and psych meds that keeps me pretty stable now. i'm so glad i found these boards. i posted a longer intro in NMI if anyone cares to know more. :P good to meet you all! xxx
 
^^ Hi moonshadow, I did indeed see your post in NMI :)
Welcome to The Dark Side. I hope you enjoy your time here! <3

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I feel like my future is already determined and I'm gonna end up with withdrawl after withdrawl and relapse after relapse and every person and everything valuable lost in a few years.
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Welcome to The Dark Side, crook. I'm glad you found this place. I believe that we are in control of our own future and that it is NOT pre-determined for us, meaning that YOU are in control of your own drug use and potential addiction. Is there anything that's happening in your life that is making you turn to opiates? Do you perhaps feel a loss of control over other aspects of your life? The sooner you can come to an understanding of why this is happening, the sooner you can work towards curbing it around <3
 
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^^ Hi moonshadow, I did indeed see your post in NMI :)
Welcome to The Dark Side. I hope you enjoy your time here! <3



Welcome to The Dark Side, crook. I'm glad you found this place. I believe that we are in control of our own future and that it is NOT pre-determined for us, meaning that YOU are in control of your own drug use and potential addiction. Is there anything that's happening in your life that is making you turn to opiates? Do you perhaps feel a loss of control over other aspects of your life? The sooner you can come to an understanding of why this is happening, the sooner you can work towards curbing it around <3
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Yeah it's been going on for a while. I've always managed to get everything done. I probably first got broken in school. I didn't wanna go there - I managed well though. I didn't plan to become a physiotherapist, I didn't plan to be with the woman I'm with, I didn't plan to have a baby, I never planned to acquire a drug habit, but yet it's what happened. I had thousands of other plans and all of them remained to be plans for many different reasons. As if my thoughts, feelings and actions aren't directly connected to one another. Besides, people around me died of drugs, cancer, car accidents - and they usually didn't choose to do so either. Yet they will very likely keep dying.

I can quit cigarettes easily (and other drugs as well), kicked em for over 4 years. It's easy if I want to do so. Then why the hell don't I want to now? What contributes to my decision making? It's like self control and free will is merely an illusion at best. You might very well be right when you say that this belief is connected to the felt loss of control over other aspects of my life. It sure seems so and makes even more sense seeing how it's spinning out of control lately (bad choice of words, but you get the idea), ever since my girlfriend got pregnant. It sure gives me something to consider for now and I thank you for that.

Btw the first time this loss of control became apparent was in early 2005 when I first tried to quit drugs. I've done so many things to avoid using since then, threw my stuff away (a LOT of it), went to therapy for 4 years, cut myself off from certain people, thoughts, websites yet there's an obvious tendency in the opposite direction.
 
I've posted a bit on the other boards but I think TDS could help me and I could help others. I'm only 21 so I may not have the most life experience but I'm dual-diagnosis or whatever ya call it did rehab for 12 months last year I was in 12 step programs also but I struggle to get involved in that community I was too anxious meeting all the new people, so I did get alot of recovery knowledge into me but I still had the reservations about totally stopping everything which fucked me yet again. I've made alot of honest posts about myself the last day I'm afraid already I'll go into my shame spiral and be afraid to come back here and post.
 
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