Mental Health Intro obligatory assuming

[Gorgonzoloft]

This is my obligatory intro I am not sure where I am supposed to post my purge but tomorrow I will well in 8 minutes it will be tomorrow my time but I need help feedback hel p feedback So I found this website linked on a YouTube video So hey my name is Gorgonzoloft.
Allergic to basically almost all medications a self-taught chef.
Long time mental health patient and now facing a plethora of dental work, newly discovered allergic to more medications and recovered addict.

The irony is sickening.

We'll go into detail in the post I find in the forum that is fitting which I doubt will fit all the shoes that will fit all the feet.

Nice to meet you half face for an anonymous mouse mice Mom ness.
Current meds Klonopin Adderall topamax.
Vaginal suppositories Valium baclofen estrogen boric acid finishing adverse reaction to hydrocodone recently prescribed oxycodone recent tooth extraction recent root canal retreatment upcoming another tooth extraction upcoming root canal retreatments recent findings six root canals botched from 2007 plethora of autoimmune disease and illnesses stemming from 2018

Former smoker only started smoking since being put back on Adderall stop smoking anytime I do not take my Adderall quit drinking anytime I do not take my Adderall Klonopin absolutely necessary Will not increase Klonopin so drinking helps magnify my dose would prefer not to drink most days sober nine days This is not ideal considering kiss extraction curious hole in the face increases chance of infection have been on antibiotics consistently since 2017 on and off due to tooth infections and bronchitis on and off.

Basically allergic to weed and have tried every strain. Please help me unfuck my life. Desperate mom of two.

 

[Gorgonzoloft]

By recently discovered allergies I mean I am allergic and say not to use the word allergic and use the word adverse reaction I hallucinate and not in a fun way on things like Benadryl (+antibiotics+ birth control pills this month) cough medicine prednisone- last month- hydrocodone- this week- Xanax - both those things might as well gave me coffee, things that you're just basically supposed to have a normal reaction to? Cannot take any antidepressants SSRIs antipsychotics only benzos or stimulants and since smoking a lace joint in 2001.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Welcome to Bluelight @Gorgonzoloft!

I wish I could instantly unfuck your life. I wish I had an unfuck button. Looks like you're going through a lot in regards to this needing medication, and desperately seeking help, so I'm going to shoot this thread over to Mental Health where you should get some better replies.

I personally would start with meditative stuff like going for a walk or literally mediating.

So is the root problem that you are depressed? Chronic pain? What are all these meds for.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

I think you should take a real honest look at Adderall. It's prescribed a heck of a lot in the states. It can make people agitated, depressed, and paranoid. I don't see it helping your mental state as you describe it. This is if you want to become well. It's ultimately not about a drug, but about you. I'd see if you can get reactions from others being a few days off of it.

I see this klonopin/adderall combination a lot in the states. It really doesn't make a heck of a lot of sense. I think they're comfort meds (and Adderall not for long), and tend not to be needed. Especially if you're a recovering addict, not good stuff imo.

Adderall isn't an advanced enough medication to work for depression, or anything other than ADHD or narcolepsy, for that matter. Same thing for opioids. If you're depressed, there are much better medications available.

Klonopin I don't know. I think it's given too much, but I don't see it wrecking people and their balanced mindstate like Adderall can.

Just a thought.

Also, it's really not good to use recreational drugs until you've been steady for a while and they say "okay you can have a beer or two". Your first goal is to get steady, to have medications that are approved and indicated for the mental illnesses that you've been diagnosed with.

That's my take.

 

[Gorgonzoloft]

Hi have no interest in using recreational drugs.That was a very short stint in my early twenties and it was induced by a abusive ex-boyfriend who needed me to become his supply.. Have been looking into focus meds, through Google research something called nootropics? Supplements kind of scare me though. Reading the book the medical medium something called ashawanda root might be a good substitute.

anyways the long story short panic disorder is my primary issue The topamax was prescribed because there's basically nothing that really helps PTSd and borderline.

The antibiotics were prescribed for the root canal and the tooth extraction. I have adverse reactions to basically everything. Antihistamines cough syrups specifically the Dextromophan, during this dental ordeal I found out I am allergic to Flagyl made me hallucinate, keflex made me hallucinate, BC control pills were supposed to help me with my skin, made me hear music that wasn't playing, Vicodin kept me awake for 45 hours, the vaginal suppositories are for my diagnosis of pelvic floor damage and nueropathy, I was on thyroid meds for hashimoto's but can't afford them anymore.My gut doesn't absorb much medications, I take a lot of vitamin sublingually, I am in chronic pain pelvicly and now orally. I talked to somebody and they said I need to visit a doctor I wouldn't say naturopath but holistic enough that they just look at the body as a whole?

My goal is to be off of the benzos I was for almost 10 years ( pregnancy)It was only after I had my son 2 years ago when I got PPD that I got put back on the Adderall for binge eating disorder, sadness, kpin for anxiety, infield started with Vyvanse but it lasted too long during the day so Adderall was supposed to be shorter acting, That's when I also picked up smoking again after not smoking for 10 years.

The painkillers don't do anything either except make me nauseous And they're running out so.

This month I recently found out that eight root canals I had performed in 2007 have been basically all botched jobs so I have a long year ahead of me of getting them all corrected. I have an extremely low pain tolerance and apparently a very high pain med tolerance. I am suffering through with ibuprofen 800.

I wouldn't call myself chemically depressed. I would say any sadness I suffer from is situational. I moved 3,000 mi away from my entire family in 2006, I spent 10 years being married to a narcissist only to get divorced after spending 7 years doing IVF treatments to bring two beautiful children into the world only to finally have the courage to leave him after he refused to work on himself and better our relationship. And then I met a true sociopath. Traumatic enough I don't even want to talk about it but I am in therapy - all the therapy.I'm incredibly proactive about it but because my children are so young it is very hard for me to get out much and really do the things that would increase my endorphins naturally. I'm adopted I grew up in an abusive household I never really learned what love looked like and I never had a normal relationship. I would consider myself very high functioning for a borderline that I did not even qualify as BPD until I met sociopath. I was just considered PTSD, But I am highly sensitive, And I can deregulate easy under the wrong circumstances if I am close enough to somebody but I am not destructive I am not intentionally hurtful I don't hurt myself I just self-destruct and leave before I am left etc.

the real depression treatment for me is being with my friends and traveling and going on adventures and painting and visiting new places and cooking for them and feeding them and doing things that nourish my soul. Also finding my purpose and going back to school and working which has been put at a standstill. I was briefly an EMT before I got married.

But with my declining health over the last year no matter what steps I take forward it seems I am pushed back.

My 2-year-old is going through a very difficult time he is being referred to speech and behavioral therapy I have 70% custody so it's very hard and I'm still living the life of a stay-at-home parent basically and luckily I have a savings and a good credit score while my ex gets every other weekend with living with his parents so he has all the help. My parents have agreed to put him in daycare on their dime which I'm very grateful for because it's let me address my health issues. I have a DBT therapist and an emotion code therapist I am looking into reiki and I would really enjoy going back to the gym but I am so atrophied and I have lost so much weight that I get exhausted so quickly.

Anyways I do have meditation apps on my phone, I even have a robot called Woebot, it's a free CBT app that you can talk to so that I don't have to bother my friends at all hours, I am pretty low needs and I'm very reciprocal in my friendships all four of them am staying away from dating as that has been a huge trigger for me because standing up for myself has caused many many men to lash out at me and be verbally abusive, ironic when you finally stand up for yourself people seem to treat you worse.

I have let people in my life and kept some very good friends after being very reclusive this past decade. But I was just wondering if there is anything natural I can take to reduce my anxiety lemon balm oil is not working, I am not willing to mess around with the marijuana at this time I'm not really sure how CBD works and I am having more and more trouble sleeping and I don't want to resort to alcohol as that surely makes things worse for me I really don't get depressed until I drink and I have had a pretty bad relapse these past few weeks because my pain management was dealt with so badly.

I am just trying to do the best I can. And I don't want to do anything stupid when the pain gets worse again. I find myself googling things to make medications work better and I don't have the luxury to be a dumbass as I am a parent. Accidental overdoses are not permitted on my horizon.

 

[Gorgonzoloft]

sorry for long novels like I said I am basically on call 24/7 operate on minimal sleep so try to get as much info out as it I can at a time and have very little contact with other people who say more than can I have a snack can I have a snack can I have a snack.

 

[iridescentblack]

I think you should take a real honest look at Adderall. It's prescribed a heck of a lot in the states. It can make people agitated, depressed, and paranoid. I don't see it helping your mental state as you describe it. This is if you want to become well. It's ultimately not about a drug, but about you. I'd see if you can get reactions from others being a few days off of it.

I recall reading about a third party study where Adderall was found to cause psychotic episodes. I'm happy you mentioned this. Even if there's not a direct link to psychosis and schizophrenia from Adderall I feel confident that's the drug that sent me over the edge so many years ago.

 

[hydroazuanacaine]

But I was just wondering if there is anything natural I can take to reduce my anxiety

tolerance develops, but valerian root extracts work. get a good one, with a standardized dose per pill. it will not work indefinitely. tolerance will build. but counter to what science says, even though tolerance builds, in my experience, there is zero withdrawal when you give them up (edit: i actually don't know this). is extremely light in effects, but significantly more than placebo. light effects is as good as it gets, without having to pay a toll in dependency and rebound anxiety.

start with a low dose, so you can up it a little and keep them working for as long as possible. properly managed, you could take them for a couple months before they're no longer worth it. only side effect i experienced was being able to smell it a little (the pills smell terrible) when i worked out hard.

wishing you the best.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

My idea is that if use for adderall is present, it's almost always with regular and substantial breaks.

A great amount of valerian root, heavy-brewed tea from loose-leaf valerian, may help, based on what your provider wants you to try, by my measure.

A lower dose, and a lesser dependency. But we're all different. People find different effective doses. But if you're getting off on your meds/herbs, it would be prudent to tell your doctor. Just saying.