Crystal Clouds
Greenlighter
I started using Methamphetamine Intravenously about two years ago and just recently (the past month or two) i went from a binge user to a daily user. the addiction has definitely got it’s claws around me but i don’t mind because the meth seems to have gotten to this really manageable level of high. i wake up and inject a 0.5 , which gets me wickedly spun first thing in the morning. by noon i need another shot so i’ll go 0.3-0.5 depending on what i’m doing , how tired i’m getting , or how much my body hurts. i should add if i’m not on meth i have extreme back pain , foot pain and knee pain. anywho , by six o’clock ish i’m ready for another shot , normally i’m home from work by then so i go balls to the wall with another 0.5. by 10pm i’m exhausted. i eat my one meal of the day , take my vitamins , hydrate and hit the pillow. eveyday i get my 8 hours of sleep just fine.
back in the day an oral dose would keep me spun for two whole days. and smoking used to actually work , get me high as hell too — nowadays if i smoke i’m pretty much wasting the meth because i will go right to bed from exhaustion and have no euphoria whatsoever. i used to shoot 0.1 and it would keep me well for a day and a half but the bags are going faster and faster with daily use. i don’t even bother buying less than a ball anymore because there’s no point.
what happened to meth ? where’s the 16 hour high ? the euphoria from IV lasts maybe an hour tops and then i’m just awake , motivated , and get my pain relief for maybe four-six hours. the rush is the best part of my life now unfortunately. not the sex on meth , it gets redundant after you’ve entangled yourself in daily use. not the music enhancement either , that’s kind of lost it’s magic too.
has daily use ruined meth for me ? i really don’t even see a point in using meth anymore as it’s not that far from what sober felt like anymore. however , i know somewhere in the back of my mind if i were to stop it’d be hell so i just keep giving in every few hours to this beast.
if i were to stop , how long would it be before i could get some semblance of a high again ?
i miss what meth used to be years ago , even if it caused all the problems in my life and put me in psychosis more times than i can count , i still even miss that aspect. psychosis doesn’t happen anymore , not even visual disturbances. and the family problems , relationship problems , work problems don’t happen anymore because nobody can tell i’m “high” on meth anymore.
should i even call it getting high anymore ? i’m just getting by …
back in the day an oral dose would keep me spun for two whole days. and smoking used to actually work , get me high as hell too — nowadays if i smoke i’m pretty much wasting the meth because i will go right to bed from exhaustion and have no euphoria whatsoever. i used to shoot 0.1 and it would keep me well for a day and a half but the bags are going faster and faster with daily use. i don’t even bother buying less than a ball anymore because there’s no point.
what happened to meth ? where’s the 16 hour high ? the euphoria from IV lasts maybe an hour tops and then i’m just awake , motivated , and get my pain relief for maybe four-six hours. the rush is the best part of my life now unfortunately. not the sex on meth , it gets redundant after you’ve entangled yourself in daily use. not the music enhancement either , that’s kind of lost it’s magic too.
has daily use ruined meth for me ? i really don’t even see a point in using meth anymore as it’s not that far from what sober felt like anymore. however , i know somewhere in the back of my mind if i were to stop it’d be hell so i just keep giving in every few hours to this beast.
if i were to stop , how long would it be before i could get some semblance of a high again ?
i miss what meth used to be years ago , even if it caused all the problems in my life and put me in psychosis more times than i can count , i still even miss that aspect. psychosis doesn’t happen anymore , not even visual disturbances. and the family problems , relationship problems , work problems don’t happen anymore because nobody can tell i’m “high” on meth anymore.
should i even call it getting high anymore ? i’m just getting by …