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Intravenous Drug Users; are they all depressed?

My point of depression was when my brother tells me "All you ever think of and talk about is dope; when you're on the comp you go to drug-oriented websites (like this one, hee hee) and I realized it's true...I suppose it's because for the last 26 years, dope has been my whole life from wake-up to bed!!! My life is total shit, no job except a landlord (or slumlord) who hires me on a day-to-day thing and pays me $20 up front(he's well aware of my habit) and doesn't have a problem giving me some dough to get off "E" (empty)...then he has to wait for me to score then I get to work. I work like a bear when I'm doped up and he knows it so he tolerates it but he's always raggin' me to get on some program, but honestly I'm not ready to quit. C'est La Vie'
 
I started shootn cuz it took too many bags to get high. Then its like damn this is a nice feelin an what's the point to go to snortin.

But I guess boredom played a role in getting addicted not in pickin up the needle. What ya mean by bein depressed got ya addicted. I ain't depressed or nothin. I never really feel happy unless I'm gettin high but I ain't sad bout my life.

Idk though I think I can attribute that loss of happiness or inability to really be feelin good bout somethin after I fucked up on mdma 2 yrs ago. I bought an 8ball an abused the fuck outta the stuff an sence than I've been diffrnt.

I think there was another thread on this with depression an addiction not sure.
 
I always tell the counselors or psychiatrists that idk if I'm depressed because of the drug use or if I use drugs because I'm depressed...Can't be sure...either way I know it's not doing me any good but I'm too deeply embedded to dope I don't know if I'll ever stop completely. I've been in detox too many times to count and I feel I need to leave the state for an extended period of time; talkin years for it to completely leave my mind. But I guess I'll have to stay gone if I expect it to stick...that means leaving behind my family(Mom, Big Brother and a Sister) which seriously I don't have a problem leaving but my Mom's 83 y.o. and in declining mental health; I think she's getting dementia, my brother's also an addict and my sister has left taking care of my mom to us...shit, we can't even take care of ourselves but she doesn't give a shit bout us, so I don't give two shits bout her and her asshole husband who talks down on us for being on dope yet he's a total alky and sniffs coke. He totally controls my sister no matter how much she denies it and pulls her strings like a marionette doll(sp?). The only thing I care about seriously is my cat whom I've had since he was a kitten and totally can't be without me for a long time or he'll hide and meow all day & night(or that's what I've been told)!! He's my L'il Buddy and I would have to take him with me wherever I go and right now I have no where to go...so I'm stuck...
 
Depression isn't the only negative feeling. It is also not the only thing that pushes someone towards hard drugs

Anxiety, loss of sanity, other mental disorders, body image problems, no coping methods, or just certain personality types
 
Cornishman said:
It's been on my mind alot recently, and I could really do with some other peoples perspectives about IV'ing drugs.

I'm talking about IV'ing in a safe sensible manner using substances which are tried and tested via this route.
Not just being reckless.


As it stands I have a coke binge problem, but most of the time I'm in positive thoughts. It's only after a binge that I get depressed.

The thing is; would a person who's not depressed pick up a needle and experience that high?

I know nothing good ever comes from it but I'm beginning to question my own motives for using.
Could it all be down to something as simple as boredom?

As it stands I view the act of IV'ing cocaine as something like BASE jumping.
An act of sheer insanity that enables the participant to feel more alive.

Answers from non IV users and IV users alike are welcome.
I'm just interested in people's perspectives.

(I UTFSE btw)
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I still can be depressed but 99% of the time for a few weeks till now (and probably for some time to come), I'm doing a lot better and am much happier.

I don't think all IDU's are depressed.

I was depressed before I started btw.
 
I was depressed before IV methamphetamine use, but I find myself more depressed since I've started (5 days off the point so far! Hopefully that stays.). I found intravenous use to be so much more convenient than smoking/snorting. Just had to boot up, and it instantly hit. Didn't have to deal with the burn from snorting or the fiendish act of smoking it. When I would smoke, I'd just want to hit it and hit it and hit it; with the needle, it was slam, and I could chill for a bit. The high also lasted much longer (meth is odd in this respect). I also found that after using the needle, freebasing it would just make me tired and left me feeling cracked out - not something I enjoy.
 
I'm not depressed, I have a pretty decent life. I have a luck ass family, great boyfriend, (a great dog, too! ) and don't have much to complain about besides when I can't find a vein lol, but anyway I wouldn't say I'm depressed so my answer is no, not all IV users are depressed IMO.
 
How long you been using? That makes a big difference IMO...At one time in my teens(right when I started sniffing as a weekend party thing) I was a street DJ with a beautiful girlfriend, decent car, a pretty good job with a paycheck every week while I DJed on weekends and made about $200-500 a night...the only reason I got paid so good was that I WAS GOOD!!! I play mostly Latin Freestyle dance music and mix them together so the music never stopped playing. You also have to play a bit of rap in there according to the crowd you have, although I didn't scratch; could never get the hang of it, I like to mix dance music; that's my forte'. Anyways in that time frame my father suddenly passed away. He was in the hospital a while so I thought it was okay, that he was OK...But he died December 24th 1987 at age 65; was getting ready to retire, totally fucked hunh? But my weekend partying spiraled out of control and I was a total mess with crying jags in between fits of anger, didn't sleep for days and the dope was the only thing I could feel...Of course from then on it was a daily habit and eventually sold everything I had; car, my DJ equipment, my weekly paycheck was pretty much handed to my dealer for a few months. I quit my job in a fit cause at the time I was in deep withdrawals and couldn't get any money and my credit was shot. I even broke down after vowing never to do so, and sold my record collection which took me years to put together. To this day I get pissed at myself for doing that, I knew the equipment could be replaced but the vinyl (12 crates) of the best Freestyle music there is can never be replaced(well you can but it would take years and a lot of the records don't exist anymore....I could go on but right now I'm strung out, can't get a regular job cause I can't stay clean, have no girlfriend and haven't had one in decades.(I don't want to bring a woman into my world anyways) and at 44 I live with my Mom it's either that or homelessness...I have a possession charge(Class A) from 1997 that haunts me if I ever apply for work, have contracted Hepatitis C (2nd time) cause I had done the treatment which is Interferon and Ribavirin for a year and a half and got it to undetectable levels but I kept picking up the needle so it back again. Severe depression and anxiety issues which go unaddressed... My life is total shit but I continue to use...WHat to do.....thought of suicide but I don't want to hurt the ones I love with a selfish act like that, so I'm in a rut...so yeah I'm depressed!!! :(
 
I've been using since 06, off & on. I've been on subutex since July of last year, & before that I was in a methadone clinic for 2yrs. I was depressed then but didn't use needles..
 
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